God I'm Feeling Low

Inside my mind going back and forth

Every single night I ask the Lord

Will he take all these grey clouds away?

'Cause when it rains, I can't stand the storm

Trauma's a pain that I can't ignore

No drive for days, I'm a crashing course

I'm tryna fight off my depression

I don't know how long I had it for

But I had it long enough to know that it is a part of me

They say, "Get over it", as if it isn't hard for me

As if I didn't hear it from everybody else

Giving me their opinion on everything they feel is wrong with me

These highs and low taken a toll

I can't control my feelings now

I just don't know how long I'll go way down this road

I'm feeling down, I make a record so they feel me now

Just 'cause you exist, don't mean you're alive

And I realized this, as time passes by

I can't call it quits, I quit every time

I need to resist this feeling inside

I wish my pain would leave and just exit

Maybe I didn't learned my lesson

I feel like I'm disconnected, 'cause

God I'm feeling low, low, low

I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, oh

God I'm feeling low, low, low

I'm tired of the pain, wish it'd go away

I tell myself that I got this

Then tell myself that I'm not shit

Tearing down my spirit, now I'm in my feelings

Man, when am I gonna stop this?

These voices in my head do hit for sure

Comparing myself till I'm insecure

It hits me the worse when I'm feeling doubt

I'm locked in my thoughts, there's no getting out

It's a toxic cycle that I can't break

To paralyze to move, so then I just wait

Till the pressure crushes me with all of this weight

Trust me, I tried to run but I can't escape

Life like a loaded gun pointed at my face

Love's like a potent drug, just to numb my pain

I tried to open up to the ones I'd date

Just to get broken up, what a mistake

God I'm feeling low, low, low

I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, oh

God I'm feeling low, low, low

I'm tired of the pain, wish it'd go away

I pray the Lord, my soul to keep

This nightmare isn't what I dreamed

I cross my hands in agony

I pray, I pray, oh