No One Knows (feat. Axyl)

Yeah, feels like I'm losin' myself

Feels like I'm losin' myself

Why am I doomin' myself?

The fuck did I do to myself?

Should've been true to myself

Dumb to think you would've helped

Dumb to think you would've helped

Feels like I'm brewin' in Hell

Feels like I'm brewin' in Hell

Can't be hard for you to tell, uh

Stuck in a slump and I keep climbin' up

I just turned twenty five, feels like my time is up

Feels like everyone's sus and it's harder to trust

And I can't shake the gut feeling

I'm feelin' like there's a knife in my gut

And that's a gut feeling

When you know deep down that the real person you love

Is doing you left, that's why I left

Don't get upset when you see me

'Cause I didn't wanna give you up

And it's fucked to think for you, I wasn't enough

I just wanted your love, but you wanted to suck

There's some nights where I wanna go out and get hella drunk

So everything I was feeling could turn into numb

Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug

I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug

Sometimes at night, I will stare up above

And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb

Why does it even matter, shit, I don't matter

I built up my hope just for it to get shattered

I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather

I flip through my thoughts, it's a terrible pattern

As if flippin' through 'em will lead me to answers

I try to move forward, but keep goin' backwards

I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter

When no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, fuck

Give my all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm livin' like a ghost

And no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm livin' like a ghost

But no one ever knows

Always alone, wish that someone could see me

I lay in my bed starin' up at the ceiling

Talkin' to myself until I'm overthinkin'

I'm home all alone, no one knows that I'm weepin'

I swear my whole life is so fuckin' deceivin'

And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receivin'

My money can't buy the family I'm needin'

My money can't heal the agony I'm feelin'

I need someone to love me, someone to hug me

Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly

I swear, they really think my life is stunning

Bro, I come home to absolutely nothing

I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money

Nobody told me my days won't be sunny

I'm bleedin' on people who didn't cut me

So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody

I have issues with women, I'm so co-dependent

I can't love myself, so I need her to give it

And that's always where my self-worth is depicted

And that's why I date women so narcissistic

My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted

And lately, it's been hard to make a decision

And it pains me that I finally admit it

I've been suicidal and tryin' not to end it, fuck

Give my all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm livin' like a ghost

But no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm livin' like a ghost

But no one ever knows

I'm saddened to think people think that I'm reaching

And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling

I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping

I been prayin' to God, asking Him for a healing

Man, I need my Mom, I need my Dad

I need the family we never had

Our family's broken, I'm feelin' hopeless

Nobody notice I'm in a trance

All I have is my daughter, I stare in her eyes

And I break down, all I do is provide

How can I give her a family life

When it's just me and her every night, fuck

Yo, this shit is too much

I'm single-handedly killin' my buzz

I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut

And all of the stress of it is makin' me numb

Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning

When I don't have a family to celebrate with me

Look, there is no bullshit excuse you could give me

To make me feel like my damn life is worth living

I swear loneliness is a cancer within me

I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing

This shit is exhausting, I'm thinkin' of quitting

And maybe the end for me's a new beginning

Give my all

Oh, I wanna walk away

I'm livin' like a ghost

And no one ever knows

See me fall

Oh, I knew that I would break

I'm livin' like a ghost

But no one ever knows