You Always Win

All the lies that you told me

And all the dreams that you sold me

I didn't wanna be lonely so I let you back in

And all the nights you'd console me

And all the tears that you showed me

It was only to control me

Just to play me again

I don't even know the reason why I love you

But from the bottom of my heart, girl I still do

And even after all the awful things we've been through

The only person that I ever want is still you

And now I walk around my city with a fake smile

With a girl who's in love with my lifestyle

And deep down, I'm just hoping that she's worthwhile

And I'm praying you don't call me with a drunk dial

Damn,

'Cause if you text right now, I know I would respond

I never really had a good relationship with my mom

So maybe that's the reason why I felt I needed a bond

'Cause all I ever really wanted was to feel I belong

You saw my deepest insecurities and knew I was weak

That's how you knew that it was easy to put me on a leash

Is that the reason you'd leave?

Is that the reason you'd cheat?

Because you knew you were the only love I wanted to keep

See I hate who you are

And I hate what you've done

And I hate that I feel like I'm never enough

And I hate that I'm sad

And I hate that I'm stuck

'Cause I can't fuck a bitch without thinking of us

And I hate that it's true

And I hate the abuse

And I hate that you will always find an excuse

For the way that you are

And the things that you do

When the truth is the reason is you

All the lies that you told me

And all the dreams that you sold me

I didn't wanna be lonely so I let you back in

And all the nights you'd console me

And all the tears that you showed me

It was only to control me

Just to play me again

So you always win

I wish it wasn't like this

Ain't a single word I know that could describe this

All the scars that I have, can't hide this

You don't wanna know the dark places that my mind's been

Have you ever been so low that your friends call your phone

But you won't pick up, so they come to your home

And they take away the bottles and the guns that you own

I'm a grown ass man but they're scared to leave me alone

How. the fuck could you leave me for someone else?

I was just another trophy that you put on your shelf

Yeah, you left me out to drown with nobody to help

I don't care to go to heaven, I'm already in hell

So you can go and grab the rope, put it around my throat

Kick the chair from under me so you can watch me choke

Take the millions that I have and go

'Cause what's the point of being rich if your heart's still broke?

All the lies that you told me

And all the dreams that you sold me

I didn't wanna be lonely so I let you back in

And all the nights you'd console me

And all the tears that you showed me

It was only to control me

Just to play me again

So you always win