Reflection

The reflection of my face Some wouldn't even recognize Oh, who put me in this place I wouldn't even recognize Time has been so cruel I could've blamed me but I blame you I do Lately I feel lost, tell me if you find me It's hard to put the past behind me When my mind just sits there and keeps reminding me Of all the bullshit that I kept inside me I'm not lying when I tell you I feel like I'm lost It just feels like I'm trapped in my thoughts I just sit there and think, and I think, and I think And I think and I think, I lost it all I am at home, I got my back against the wall I feel hella alone I got no one to call And I'm still on my own because no one's involved Tell me, where do I go when everything falls? Damn, I guess that's why I'm making this song I just sit and reflect on every single thing that went wrong My best friend, he turned out to be a fake The real definition of becoming a snake And I lost my girl too and that was my mistake I put music above her and it took her place And she's the one I love and my heart it just breaks Because now I'm alone, there's no girl to replace See I tried to re-date, but it's always a waste Ever since she left nothing's ever been the same Lately it feels like I just been wilding out There's too many things that I'm finding out And my passion has been slowly dying out And I'm still inside of a hole and I'm climbing out Just to stumble over, but I'm trying now Lost my composure, so I write it out I'm feeling depressed and I'm hiding out I think that's why I'm crying out The reflection of my face Some wouldn't even recognize Oh, who put me in this place I wouldn't even recognize Time has been so cruel I could've blamed me but I blame you I do I guess I'm to blame, can't lie to me Walk in the room and they start eyeing me Feeling overwhelmed with my anxiety So I stay to myself and I overthink quietly I stare in the mirror and I vent there alone You say you been there when I'm on my own You say you'll be there when I know you won't And you say you love me when I know you don't I swear this depression isn't a muthafuckin' joke Anxiety too, I deal with them both I been losing my faith and my hope Still haven't found a way I can cope Yeah, I think loving myself is the very thing that I need most 'Cause, I lost everyone else that I thought I would always keep close And to think, I gave you all that I can You took advantage of me and ran I made you who you are now I ask What would you flip on me I don't understand? Told myself never again, never reach out for a hand Never put trust in a friend, never give up where you stand I gave everybody a chance just to see we didn't last Nothing that I been doing has been panning out I'm suffering and you stand around And I'm falling so fucking hard I could smash the ground Wishin' that I could have my mom and dad around Anxiety got the best of me and I'm spazzing out Exhausted so much I feel like just passing out I wanted the fame, you can have it now... 'Cause I ain't the same you can ask around, 'cause The reflection of my face Some wouldn't even recognize Oh, who put me in this place I wouldn't even recognize Time has been so cruel I could've blamed me but I blame you I do