Moment

Suicidal, like who am I though?

I fuckin' hate you, that's my newest motto

I could choose to change

But I choose the bottle

If I fall asleep I'll see a new tomorrow, yeah

'Cause you don't feel the pain

That I been feelin' inside

I'm fuckin' losin' my mind

They're looking at me like I shot the sheriff

'Cause I got too drunk and I'm not embarrassed

But I've been depressed

And that's not apparent

Unless I say it out loud

So they all can hear it, yeah

And I don't wanna seem like

All I want is attention

You seem to think I'm pretendin'

Now all I see is these shards of glass

So I walk in the bar

And I start a tab

I got a soft soul

But a hardened past

Tell the waiter up front

He can call my cab

I'm a hypocrite, an insomniac

I'm a piece of shit but I honor that

I got mental problems

And it's got me mad

But you seem to think that they aren't as bad

As I think they are

What kind of call is that?

You don't know what it's like

You ain't thought to ask

But you ain't me

And you never will be

The devil inside was sent to kill me

If you really care

I expect the real thing

I feel like they won't ever get the message

Will they?

S'all good, I won't get my hopes up

I'm drunk as fuck but I think I'm sober

I been all alone lately

Feel like I might go crazy

I must be the only one that feels this way

Lock up all the doors, baby

Disconnect the phone, baby

Block out all the noise

And I might be okay

Just let me have my moment

I really need my moment

I gotta have my moment

I really need my moment

I need a moment of silence

I found a bottle back in grade 7

A young desperado

I had to make effort

My foot's on the gas

Not the brake pedal

I just put it on ice

So it tastes better, yeah

I guess I'm just confused

'Cause I see all the potential

But lately I'm going mental

(I don't know what to do)

Who'd thought I'd get this nervous

The lifestyle I lead's

Not picture perfect

They hear what I say

But they miss the purpose

Pour a shot in my glass

Till it hits the surface

I hide it inside

I should lift the curtains

But today I just feel

Like a different person

I keep telling myself that it isn't urgent

If you dig what I'm saying

You should feel my words then

It's obvious to me

That I'm the root of the issue

Don't make me use it against you

('Cause I will)

'Cause when it backfire

I just disappear

I'm way too anxious

I live in fear

I see it from afar

And it's crystal clear

But now the object's closer

Than it appears

When I'm fucked up I feel okay

But the next morning there's no way

That I could feel good

And it's so strange

So I do it all again

Till it go away

I don't need friends

I got José

And this red cup, and this OJ

It is what it is

It'll take awhile

So I shake these hands

And I fake this smile

I been all alone lately

Feel like I might go crazy

I must be the only one that feels this way

Lock up all the doors, baby

Disconnect the phone, baby

Block out all the noise

And I might be okay

Just let me have my moment

I really need my moment

I gotta have my moment

I really need my moment

I need a moment of silence