In My Mind

I need to laugh a little I'm just going through the motions

I'd be stressing on my future that's how I approach it

Still avoiding things that don't bring comfort so apparent

I often wonder what it'd be like to have both my parents

My mind a scary place to be my thoughts are so unbalanced

I smoke my pain away sobriety has been a challenge

It's not a phase its everyday I'm simply overwhelmed

Abandonment has been an issue since I was a child

A little hope I'm holding onto but its slowly fading

Depression comes in waves and I can feel these walls are caving

If you're not winning in your mind then life is not fulfilling

I found my purpose but I still feel like I'm lacking meaning

I'm wasting away

Feeling like I'm six feet under

There's no escape

I still hate who I am sober

I should be alone what I tell myself

Stress is killing me

I think I need some help

Praying to my God

It's raining all the time

Angel vs Demon

It's always in my mind

My life is full of empty promises I'm not compliant

I look into the mirror its pitiful and so defiant

Another year has passed but most days I am just surviving

I need some inspiration I don't see no silver lining

Do not get close to me cause if you do you will regret it

I'm only holding grief the path I'm on is not angelic

Sometimes I think I just got lucky by the grace of God

How did I make it here when I was facing all the odds?

I need your comfort please I do not need another lecture

My mind is dark and grey my demons love to bring me pleasure

I'm barely hanging on but fighting till the death of me

I need to know that you'll be there I'm praying on my knees

I'm wasting away

Feeling like I'm six feet under

There's no escape

I still hate who I am sober

I should be alone what I tell myself

Stress is killing me

I think I need some help

Praying to my God

It's raining all the time

Angel vs Demon

It's always in my mind

My stress is slowly killing me

When will it be over?

They say that time heals everything

But I cannot find closure

I'm wasting away

Feeling like I'm six feet under

There's no escape

I still hate who I am sober

I should be alone what I tell myself

Stress is killing me

I think I need some help

Praying to my God

It's raining all the time

Angel vs Demon

It's always in my mind