Edgerly

It always hits me late at night

Smoking in the park outside the old folks' home on Edgerly

The answer's right in front of me

It only takes a couple hits

To shake me from this pattern which I've fallen into recently

I swear my heart to secrecy

I don't wanna burn out, so I'm burning down

My future's written in the clouds

That's the way that I am, can't change it now

It always hits me late at night

That I'm so fucked, and I can't rely on my neuroplasticity

And there's no god that's saving me

And every dream I have at night

Where I feel like I'm dying, I try to scream, but no one's listening

I'm gone, and they're indifferent, oh, god

I don't wanna burn out, so I'm burning down

My future's written in the clouds

That's the way that I am, can't change it now

Can't change it now, oh, I can't change it now

What if I'm not cut out for this

And I can't shake what I was born with?

What's carved into my skeleton?

And my friends will all watch

As I fuck this life up, and they'll keep their mouth shut

For the sake of some protection 'cause intervention is a false love

And I think about it dreadingly

In front of that old folks' home on Edgerly

The answer's right in front of me

It's right in front of me