CLOSE MY EYES 2

'Bout time that I, I close my eyes and hide from the darkness Have I earned that yet? (Have I earned that yet?) Have I earned that yet, yet, yet, yet? (Yet, yet, yet, yet) I'm sorry to mom, I know that you're sad That I'm only callin' when life's gettin' bad The son that you wanted was not what you got And the father I needed was not what I had The life that we're livin', it broke us together Meanwhile, I was wishin' it'd hold us together I'm sorry I'm down, I'm sorry I'm stressed I'm fuckin' my life up, I've been way too depressed This is not us, definitely not me This is not what I was wantin' to be I'm sorry I'm messin' it up, and I'm stressin' us both With the pressure I'm holdin' inside I wanna die, but I don't wanna leave Just kill all the stress that I feel in my life The person you knew wasn't here, man, he died I wish that you had a chance to say goodbye I lost myself inside the life I love Got knocked down and couldn't climb back up I'm sorry mom, I'm not the perfect son Tried my best but now I think I'm done I lost myself inside the life I love Got knocked down and couldn't climb back up I'm sorry mom, I'm not the perfect son Tried my best, but now I think (I'm done) Feelin' depressed, feel like I'm lesser Feel like I'm not livin' up to the measure Feel the depression and the aggression Of not bein' enough when I look at myself And if you only knew what I'm tellin' myself When I'm feelin' blue and I dwell on myself Sit in my room and put hell on myself It's nothin' new, I'm not feelin' myself, uh Locked in my mind, and it feels like I'm dyin' Fucked up inside, will I ever be fine? I don't know, yeah You know what it's like when you feel like your heart skips a beat? When you feel like your thoughts are on fuckin' repeat? And you're askin' "Why does it have to be me?" (Have to be me) And I hope that I will get to See the days when I'm not sad And I hope I can find rest too 'Bout time that I, I close my eyes and hide from the darkness Have I earned that yet? (Have I earned that yet?) Have I earned that yet, yet, yet, yet? (Yet, yet, yet, yet) 'Bout time that I, I close my eyes and hide from the darkness Have I earned that yet? (Have I earned that yet?) Have I earned that yet, yet, yet, yet? Yet, yet, yet, yet, yet