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Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Phora
Phora
Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Anthony Ruiz
Anthony Ruiz
Songwriter
Casey T. Luong
Casey T. Luong
Songwriter
Marco Archer
Marco Archer
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Marco Archer
Marco Archer
Recording Engineer
Anthro
Anthro
Producer
Captain Pizza
Captain Pizza
Producer
keshi
keshi
Producer
Ocean
Ocean
Producer
Anthro Beats
Anthro Beats
Producer
Ocean Beats
Ocean Beats
Producer

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Holding on doesn’t feel the same
Nothing seems to cover up the pain
Baby, I’ve been trying but you can't hear what I say
Baby, baby
[Verse 2]
Baby, I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
Baby, I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Baby, I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
(Baby) I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
[Verse 3]
Yeah, I’ve just been so numb, it feels like nothing’s real
I’ve just been so empty, I can’t fuckin’ feel
But I can feel my body start to fade
My heart is cold
That’s why I’m so sick of taking all these fuckin’ pills
I don’t ever talk about it much
Drinking everyday, just to escape the memories of us
And you paint me as a villain, but my blood is on your brush
I was in it til’ the end, you was in it for the rush
See I’m scared of being hurt and I’m scared of getting close
'Cause the closest people to you are the ones that hurt you most
But it's hard to know your worth, when everything is broke
Now I’m just drowning in my sorrow trying not to fuckin’ choke
The more pain you go through, the harder to feel
And the scars that we can’t see are the hardest to heal
I gave you everything, I’m just left with all of these pills
And even though I fuckin’ hate you, you have part of me still
Cry for you, I promised that I would never fuckin’ cry for you
Die for you, I can’t be without you, I would die for you
Bleed for you, I do anything, I'd fuckin’ bleed for you
Why can’t you understand I fuckin’ needed you?
[Verse 4]
Holding on doesn’t feel the same
Nothing seems to cover up the pain
Baby, I’ve been trying but you can't hear what I say
Baby, baby
[Verse 5]
Baby, I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
(Baby) I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Baby, I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
(Baby) I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Written by: Anthony Ruiz, Casey T. Luong, Marco Archer
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