03' Adolescence

La la la! La la la! La la la! La la la! La la la! La la la! I grew up a fucking screw up Tie my shoe up, wish they was newer Damn! This something newer in love with the baddest Girl in the city I wish I knew her I wish I wasn't so shy Wish I was a bit more fly I wish that I Could tell her how I really feel inside That I'm the perfect nigga for her But then maybe that's a lie She like' a certain type of nigga And it's clear I'm not that guy Ball player Star player I'm just watching from the side On a bench Cus my lack of confidence Won't let me fly I ain't grow up with my father I ain't thinking bout' that now Fast forward four years Or so from now I'll prolly cry When I realise what I miss But of now my eyes are dry Cus I'm trying to stay alive In the city where too many niggaz die Dreaming quiet trying to dodge a suit and tie Who am I? (La,la,la!) Aye who am I? (La,la,la,la,la,la) Yeah Things change rearrange and so do I It ain't always for the better dawg I can't lie I get high cause the laws can be so cold I might bend a little bit but I don't fall One time for my mind and Two for yours I got food for your thoughts To sooth your soul If you see my tears fall just let me be Move along nothing to see I always did shit the hard way My niggaz slangging in the hallway Burnt CD's of trees like this was Broadway Time square Kept the dimes there in the locker Some Reggie Miller With more brown hairs than Chewbacca Whispers that he got it for the low-low Sell a dime for a dub Them white boys ain't know no better Besides What's 20 dollars to a nigga like that? He tell his popps he needs some lunch And he gon' get it right back I peep gang Got home snatch my momma keychain Took her whip The appeal too ill to refrain I hit the boulevard Pull up to my nigga front door He's momma at home She still let him hit the blunt though I told her hello? And sat with my nigga and laugh And talk about how we gon' smash All the bitches in class I complimented how I see him getting his cash And just ask What a nigga gotta do to get that? Put me on He just laughed when he seen I was sure 17 years breathing his demeanor said more He told me You know how you sound right now? You're my man's I would think that you a clown right now Listen! You're everything I wanna be that's why I fucks with you So how you looking up to me When I look up to you? You bout' to go get a degree Imma be stuck with two choices Either graduate to wait or Sell a number two For what? A 100 bucks or two a week Do you think that you would know what do If you was me? I gat four brothers, one mother That don't love us If they ain't never want us Why the fuck they never wore rubbers I felt the shame to have ever complained About my lack of getting and thought about How far we done came From trailer parks to A front yard with trees in the sky Thank you momma dry your eyes There ain't no reason to cry You made a genius and I Ain't gon' take it for granted I ain't gon' settle for lesser I ain't gon' take what they handed Now I'm gon" take what they owe me And show you that I can fly And show old girl what she missing The the realest nigga alive Aye who am I? Things change rearrange and so do I Aye who am I? It ain't always for the better dawg I can't lie Who am I? I get high cause the laws can be so cold I might bend a little but I don't fall One time for my mind and two for yours I gat food for your thoughts To sooth your soul If you see my tears fall just let me be Move along nothing to see