Pity Party

I love the way I really hate myself

I profit off a lack of mental health

My mood shows up on a conveyor belt

It's crushing, my guts are on the floor

I said I wanted to get a normal job

I romanticize a life I think I want

Until, I'm handing you the bill

And you say you used to like my band

Is this forever?

Am I a name that you'll remember?

Will you remember? Will you remember?

Will you, will you remember? Will you remember?

It's all just a pity party

Oh, what a joy, what a crowd

I'll tell you I'm oh, so sorry, 'cause it's embarrassing now

It's a parody of pleasure

Lips big and red like a clown

It's all just a pity party

So cry for me or get out

It's crazy how I almost died this year

And now I'm shotgunning my very first beer

And Dad keeps telling me that his end is near

Am I dying, waiting for him to die?

I'll starve my body for the seventeenth time

Said I ate my lunch, what's another lie

I'm over being mediocre

I wanna be smaller and smarter or just okay

Don't need forever

Don't need forever, don't need forever, don't need it

Don't need forever

Am I a name that you'll remember?

It's all just a pity party

Oh, what a joy, what a crowd

I'll tell you I'm oh, so sorry, 'cause it's embarrassing now

It's a parody of pleasure

Lips big and red like a clown

It's all just a pity party

So cry for me or get out

I hate that I keep pushing friends away

I'm all or nothing till I'm alone and gray

Am I missing something, are you scared to stay?

Can you come over, and make me feel like shit?

I promise that I won't cut my arms

'Cause I'm so sick of having long sleeves on my body

I'll throw a pity party

Leave your problems at the door 'cause it's about me

Until it's over

Until it's over, until it's over

Until it's over

And my ex is crying on my shoulder

On my shoulder, on my shoulder

On my shoulder

Welcome to my pity party

Gear up, it's gonna get loud

Let's take it to the beginning

This song is embarrassing now