As if Waltz

To have you and know I'll never see you again

To want you outside of this room

To take you dancing

To take you out

To get married

To make you mine

To see you with regular clothes on

To earn you, to love you

To look at your face and feel no shame

To have no ounce of pity

To know you have no eye on the time

To love you without regret

For an hour you're everything

But only an hour

To know what you think

To hear your true voice

To hope your heart beats for me

For an hour you're everything

And what a sweet hour

To see you without your makeup on

To see you cry and sleep

To hide in your closet and see you at work

To see if all the rest are like me

To stay behind after and hear all the gossip

To see how the business works

For an hour I wish for all this

But only an hour

For an hour you're everything

And what a sweet hour

To hear you sing in the shower

To take you abroad

To meet your parents, see your home

To show you my family

To take you to see my favourite films

To see what you think of Proust

And to read all of your favourite books

And to watch you fuck other men

To let your breast warm my hands from the cold

And not afterwards have sex

To see you naked and leave you alone

To hear you moan and walk away

To help you in any way I can

To give you whatever you need

To put you through school

To get you a job

To bribe professors and police

For an hour I know I'll do all this

But only an hour

To kiss you while fully clothed

To go sledging in the snow

To pretend I met you anywhere but here

To wish I met you anywhere but here

To tell my mum I love you

To tell the world I need you

To never tell your secret

To never tell your secret

To pretend I've more to say to you than

"How much?"

To pretend we've more to do together than fuck

To be with you for more than an hour

To be with you for more than an hour

To act as if I'm very different than the rest

Hit me, I'm different than all the rest

To act as if you care

To act as if