Big Sad (feat. Carol Ades)

I cannot speed it up

But I can slow it down

The pace at which I let it all spill out

I am staring at the exit

I know the pathway to the door

But everybody knows I love a detour

I'm throwing tantrums

I'm picking fights with everyone I love

It's becoming clearer and clearer

Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

It's becoming clearer and clearer

Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

I liked it when I slammed the car door in your face

I stood up our best friends

And left you there to explain

There is no dignity in self-selecting out of love

But I swear it's the only option

The moment the sadness comes

I'm throwing tantrums

I'm picking fights with everyone I love

It's becoming clearer and clearer

Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

It's becoming clearer and clearer

Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

Choosing the small sad for longer does no favors

Choosing the big sad for shorter sucks on paper

Then I wait with you, tell the truth

'Til I'm ugly crying

That didn't help to call myself 'ugly' while I'm crying

I'm pretty, I'm brave

And I did the best that I could today

It's becoming clearer and clearer

Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder