Wishes

I wish I was a reader and I wish I was The kind of daughter that calls her mom With stupid questions or anything at all And I wish that I was smaller or I wish I was Better at being kind to the one body that I've got After all, it keeps me breathin' 'til the day it just cannot I wish I didn't feel like a burden All the time Wish I were certain I wanna live this Kind of life I wish I didn't linger on every thought Reshaping every moment to the point of losing touch Wish I was in my body 'stead of hovering above (oh) And I wish that I was harder and I wish I was Less of a feeler so it wouldn't hurt so much But I offer all my pillows and I give my bed to lay I'm a shoulder for a cry until the tears melt me away I wish I didn't feel like a burden All the time Wish I were certain I wanna live this Kind of life I wish that I was smarter and I wish I could Communicate a thought without being misunderstood But it's better keeping quiet, yeah, it's easy staying put And I wish I didn't cater when I know I should've Stop begging for forgiveness and start putting down my foot I'm just used to people pleasing, yeah, I've gotten way too good I think I've become the person that I said I never would I wish I didn't feel like a burden All the time Wish I were certain I wanna live this Kind of life I wish I didn't (I wish I didn't) feel like a burden Ah-oh I wish I wasn't (I wish I wasn't) so scared of something Oh-oh-ooh I wish these wishes weren't all for nothing All the time