Facing My Demons

Why do I feel like I gotta be

Somebody that the world wants me to be?

I was crazy, I was losin' it

Cocaine in my body, I'm abusin' it

I'm gettin' fucked up on Percocet

I just received a call, it was a death threat

If I gotta die today, and there ain't no other way

But shootin' me down then puttin' me up in the grave

Then I'ma face it, look the shooter in his eyes

The one who can save me is the man in the sky

The one pullin' the trigger's the devil in disguise

For my children sake, I'm tryna be alive

I'm a beast in the streets, I know how to survive

All my life I been doubted

Will I see 25? I doubt it

Rolls-Royce bitch, just know I just bought it

I just wanna be the man for my fam

I been through pain, I walk in the rain

I look at my reflection up in the mirror

And I can admit that I feel so ashamed

I done some dirt that I cannot forget

I'm wipin' the blood, I'm wipin' my sweat

The reason I killed him 'cause he posed a threat

I got some sons and I got a daughter

You playin' with me and there's gon' be a slaughter

I don't wanna live my life like this no more

I don't wanna sell this dope

The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid

I don't know what I'ma do

I'ma be a gangsta forever

Ain't no love in the streets and I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons, that evil, I seen it

The money, the root of all evil, believe me

You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill

Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephews

Bullets hit your body now you leave in a rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephews

Bullets hit your body now you leave in a rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

I'm tryin' to change my life for the better

If I go to prison, would they write a letter?

Would they even care that I wasn't there?

It feels like I got haters everywhere

Haters, suckers, motherfuckers

I was built like no other

It's a cruel world, they criticize your skin color

Mobbin', robbin', homicide

For some'n makes them feel alive

I'm always curious to find out

Where I'ma go when I die

People hate me all the time

But they ain't even met me yet

I was born to win in last

So that ain't nothin' I'ma sweat

I came off of sellin' that dope

Have you ever had the cops break down your door?

Have you ever had the cops put you on the floor?

And rob all of your dope

No, you don't know how that feels

You're totally broken, you're ready to kill

You're prayin' to God, askin' for a deal

"Oh Lord, I can't afford a meal"

I just wanna go legit

I feel like a piece of shit

I don't wanna live my life like this no more

I don't wanna sell this dope

The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid

I don't know what I'ma do

I'ma be a gangsta forever

Ain't no love in the streets and I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons, that evil, I seen it

The money, the root of all evil, believe me

You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill

Every time I need paper this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephews

Bullets hit your body now you leave in a rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephews

Bullets hit your body now you leave in a rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you