Facing My Demons

Why do I feel like I gotta be somebody that the world wants me to be? I was crazy, I was losin' it Cocaine in my body, I'm abusin' it I'm gettin' fucked-up on Percocet I just received a call, it was a death threat If I gotta die today and there ain't no other way But shootin' me down then Puttin' me up in the grave then I'ma face it Look the shooter in his eyes The one who can save me, is the Man in the sky The one pullin' the trigger is the devil in disguise For my children's sake, I'm tryna be alive I'm a beast in the streets, I know how to survive All my life I been doubted Will I see 25? I doubt it Rolls-Royce, bitch just know I just bought it I just wanna be the man for my fam I been through pain, I walk in the the rain I look at my reflection up in the mirror And I can admit that I feel so ashamed I've done some dirt that I cannot forget I'm wipin' the blood, I'm wipin' my sweat The reason I killed him 'cause he posed a threat I got some sons and I got a daughter You playin' with me, there's gonna be a slaughter I don't wanna live my life like this no more I don't wanna sell this dope The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid I don't know what I'ma do I'ma be a gangster forever Ain't no love in the streets And I don't trust you I'm facing my demons That evil, I've seen it The money, the root of all evil, believe me You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you I'm trying to change my life for the better If I go to prison, would they write a letter? Would they even care, if I wasn't there? It feels like I got haters everywhere Haters, suckers, motherfuckers I was built like no other It's a cruel world, they criticize your skin color Mobbin', robbin', homicide for something that makes them feel alive But I'm always curious to find out where I'ma go when I die People hate me all the time, but they ain't even met me yet I was born to win in last, so that ain't nothin' I'ma sweat I came up off of sellin' that dope Have you ever had the cops break down your door? Have you ever had the cops put you on the floor and rob all of your dope? No, you don't know, how that feels You're totally broken and ready to kill You're praying to God Asking for a deal, "O Lord, I can't afford a meal" I just want to go legit, I just feel like a piece of shit I don't wanna live my life like this no more I don't wanna sell this dope The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid I don't know what I'ma do I'ma be a gangster forever Ain't no love in the streets And I don't trust you I'm facing my demons That evil, I've seen it The money, the root of all evil, believe me You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you