One Million Dimes

Look, everything I say up in my songs

I swear to God it's true

I put it on my three kids

That they die in front of you

Listen up, this is nothing that I want to brag about

I did a lot of dirt when I was young I cannot talk about

I used to shoot my gun for no reason

We coulda talked it out

It ain't about being the hardest

It's about being the smartest

It's not about conducting violence

It's about moving in silence

Do what you got to do

Just make sure your kids is always smiling

Instead of buying diamonds

I'd rather buy them some presents

I use to dwell on my past

But now, I live in the present

I got to persevere

I got demons up in here

I don't even talk to myself no more

'Cause I know they here

Everything that I say

And they move with me throughout the day

God, I need you now, come brighten up my day

Please, show me the light

'Cause all I see is the dark

Forgive me father, I have sinned

And this is coming right from my heart

I must have sold a million dimes

I was selling drugs all the time

And I'm sorry, momma

For the pain you went through

I'm sorry, I promise

What I did was for you

Look, look, I never want to see my kids

Sell a drug, and that's for sure

It's a horrible feeling

When DEA is at your door

They point a gun at you and your wife

And put your kids on the floor

I don't know no other way

I cannot be scrubbing floors

Before I get a job, I'd rather get my gun

And rob a store

I'm tired of committing crime

Man, this shit is getting old

I got a lot of beef in the streets

I'm just gon' let it go

But if they try to take my life

I swear to God, I'll let it blow

I'ma flea the scene

And make it look like someone robbed your blow

When it come to drugs and to murder

It's gon' be case closed

But fuck the bullshit

I'll empty out this full clip

I drive away like it ain't shit

And then I smoke a full zip

Momma, I know I made you mad

I know that actions that I made

In my life made you sad

I just wanted to pay your bills

I just wanted to pay your car

I just wanted to have you feeling like

You was a super star

And that's what you are

Do not let them tell you different

When they use to talk bad about your son

You would say he different, but momma

You my momma forever

I'm your son forever

You got my heart forever

I'm gon' love you forever

I got your back, you got mine

And that's a fact, momma

And I'ma tell you again

I'm sorry for the drama

I must have sold a million dimes

I was selling drugs all the time

And I'm sorry, momma

For the pain you went through

I'm sorry, I promise

What I did was for you

(Sorry)