Last Letter

(Hurts, let the love sprin' out) (Although it hurts, let the love sprin' out) (Although it hurts, let the love sprin' out) (Although it hurts, let the love sprin' out) (Although it hurts) A put the barrel to my head and send a text to my mother I'd be better off dead (bang) The message said, "Reggie text me back", sayin' that's some nonsense I hit her back, "Mama, I think that I've fuckin' lost it" Got some pills in my system and some liquor down my throat I'm not playin' the victim, I hate bein' on my road She tryin' call me now, but I won't answer my phone Sweat runnin' down my head, losin' feelin' in my toes And shakin' from my nerves, but I won't drop that gun Time to take my fuckin' life, I swear to God that I'm done Hand slipped and it answered the phone I can hear it saying, "Please! Parker don't go!" Now's your time to fuckin' leave, it's time to take a breath Parker just breathe Five minutes away, can you please wait for me? My mother's so numb, I can't say no words to her It hurts even more 'cause I know my worth to her I know I'm selfish for desertin' her But I can't tell if it's worse for her, or if it's worse for me I take it to the force, let them fuckin' search for me I got my shoes tied, dirty Nike's on my feet Pills are finally kickin' in, I can barely even see I opened up the door, my problems started to flee 'Cause the pain that started this will be over for me I hope it will be over for me I've been feelin' lonely, lately What if I go? Will I find peace for me? Maybe Last letter that I wrote Last letter that I wrote Walkin' along the train tracks alone again Got my girl on the phone again This shit you can't take back, now I'm losin' hope again Memories on playback, I just don't know how to cope with them Tell her that I'm tryna keep my head up, but I'm fed up and I can hear the voice inside that tells me to get up and 'Cause of her, that I'm tryna hold it together My body foldin' as I'm holdin' this phone and writin' my final letter Now she's cryin' and screamin' tryna believe it I feel like I'm dying, I'm leaving My knuckles hurt from all the punches, I've been fightin' my demons Now she's runnin' like she's never done, tryin' to breathe and No rush babe, it's somethin' that I'm done with I've thought about this many times, how I'm fuckin' nothing And I don't see no love and, I look around I look around for somethin' to remind me to stick around And in life pussy, no signs, so fuck it (fuck it, fuck it) Now she's tryna talk me out of it Screaming, "Calm down, there's other ways to go about it" "Sorry, I didn't believe you, why would I ever doubt it?" "I'm comin' over now", like her presence would ever stop it Nah! Sittin' in my hoodie Sweat is pourin' and I'm nervous Think of what I could be if everythin' was more perfect Should I take the leap of faith? See no reason why I shouldn't Well, this world only made me see and believe in what I couldn't Damn, we almost didn't put through And if we didn't me and Parker wouldn't be talkin' to you Follow you, or come from broken heart and broken homes Know that you're not lost, just 'cause you're a broken soul (Although it hurts, let the love sprin' out) (Although it hurts, let the love sprin' out)