Kindest Regards

Here to tell you the truth, tell you I'm nervous

Tell you my story, tell you I'm worth it

Tell you my flaws and my faults and my doubts

Give you my heart and what's left of it now

Tell you my hurt, tell you my pain

Tell you the thoughts I keep trapped in my brain

Tell you that nothing's the same

Tell you I'm nothing much more than a man

And tell you I fear I may never find love

Tell you I'm gettin' in touch with above

And right now, can't deny that I'm scared, all this music

I wrote won't compare or warrant a buzz

Alone in my room, dissectin' each line that I rhyme

I don't know how I'll finish on time

Missed the drop date three times

I know that I let you all down

Well, I was the first in that line

So sever my soul form my body, engulf it in music

Then give you something to relate

This is somewhere to go when your heart becomes cold

And your friends become fake

As you stand on the edge of the world

You feel like you're destined to break

And your grandma is screaming, "You're worthless"

And callin' you names to your face

Mom and I had to move to a place

Second time that I'll rhyme to paint this picture

And I can't deny, I would hide in my room

And would cry from dealin' with ya

Picture's so vivid, you yell in the kitchen

I'm takin' my boxes, I've made a decision

I'm done with your dissin', your father there fixin'

I tried to be nice, but you just wouldn't listen

I couldn't wait for the day

Just to give you my take on the shit that you did

Silly old bitch, never be like you, never be so rude

I hope, I wish alone and sit, you sit, but this is where we end it

It's crazy to me how the truth is often most offensive

Battle tested, learned my lesson to forgive, but not forget

I spilled my heart, opened my chest

Irrelevant, you are to me, but part to me, honestly

Thought I should address, life often makes this mess

I've come to give you more, while everybody gives you less

Yeah, and lookin' back on, it all was a lie

At your friend's house and there's no other guys

Surprise, and look who you're with

I'm not tryin' to diss, I'm just tellin' you this

That your feelings may fade, but your memories stick

Hope you're happy with him

I honestly hope you're happy with him

And he does all the things that I would and I tried

But I couldn't, could keep goin' on, but I know that I shouldn't

I shouldn't waste any more time

Shouldn't waste any more lines

When  you're drunk off the wine, do you find

Me crossin' your mind? We knew this would happen with time

But I think that we finally figured it out

That we would just never work out

I tried pickin' you up, you tried pullin' me down

But now life without you is where happy is found

And right now, I'm just focused on music

Trust you would lose it

Ripped out my heart, you abused and you used it

Love's not a label on Facebook

When I gave you everything like, "Girl, wait, look"

But you didn't care, I would just stare at my wall

And you gave me no reason at all when you left

Picked myself up when you made me feel less

Much better off and to that I detest

Well, now let's just put it to rest, I wish you the best

My friends don't respond to my texts

Yes, I've been busy with "Kindest Regards"

But is it that hard just to call?

I wanna hang out, yet you're shuttin' me out

And you put in no effort at all

Now you got me confused, like, "What did I do?"

Used to tell you if I'll make it, I'll be bringin' all of you

Now, my circles are limited a few

And y'all walked out and left, that left no one to lose

I got nothing to lose

And nothing to gain by not tellin' the truth

Been barely believin' in love

I still really don't even know if I do

But if someone was ever to make me believe

Then that someone is you, I promise it's you

I never took action, you're snapchattin'

Askin' me where all my music is at

We're talkin' right now as I'm writin' this rap

You're someone I wish that I always could have

And to be blatant, girl, your name is

Still can't say it

Never could say it, scared you would hate it

Wonder what crosses your mind when you play it

I'm patient, I'm waitin' for you

Even wrote "Rescue" about me and you

Maybe one day we will be, we'll wait and we'll see

Now I'm chasin' my dream and I hope you do too

And I'm hopin' to prove, I'm payin' my dues

Dad would get drunk and pass out

I'm like, "What are you doin'?"

Booze and you lose it, he knew it

So he got sober, so proud, I knew you could do it

I'm out at a party, y'all tell me to drink

Here's what I think, I think you look stupid

Sinkin' my soul in the music

I do it for free and just know that I'm woven into it

My fans, we turned into fam

I'm here to guide you, give me your hands

Tell me your thoughts and your dreams and your plans

They told me I never could be what I am

Now look where we stand

We stand for everything we said we'd stand for

When they tried to give us less, we said, "Nah, fuck that

We demand more," and we stand tall

Dan told me, "Jump on that beat and go tell 'em the truth"

That's what I do, I do this for you

I tell you my story to help you get through

And you see that this life is hard

The darkest nights make the brightest stars

I'm bringin' y'all with me, let's raise the bar

I know y'all can feel this, whoever you are

Kindest regards, Mark