bad again

I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time

The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah

I justify self-medicating by saying it's just this time

But one turned to two, and then three, now I see that they're warning signs

Slowly slipping, start to spiral

Caught myself in self-denial

Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (fuck)

I know myself and, no, I can't pretend

It's getting bad again

I'm watching my life from the passenger side of the train-wreck

Someone cut the brakes, but I don't even brace for the impact, yeah

I've been hit too many times to count

Wasting my energy, emptied my bank account

All for the sake of trying to change something that won't go away

Slowly sleeping, start to spiral

Caught myself in self-denial

Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (fuck)

I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end

I know myself and, no, I can't pretend

It's not too much for like giving up on this (like giving up)

It's getting bad

(Oh, it's getting bad again)

Hold my breath, I'm going under

Try to fight this, I don't wanna

Feel like sinking any longer

It's getting bad (it's getting bad again)

Hold my breath, I'm going under

Try to fight this, I don't wanna

Feel like sinking any longer

It's getting bad again

I know myself and, no, I can't pretend

I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end

I know myself and, no, I can't pretend

It's getting bad again