brave enough

I built myself a fortress

Thinking I'd be better for it

But I'm lonelier than I have ever been

Lock the doors and board the windows

But I hear it in the echoes

It's living here inside the bones of me

All these thoughts are fallen leaves

Try to hold them, on my knees

Too scared that they would call me weak

If I'm honest, the thought of talking terrifies me

I've been running, it won't be real if I just hide it

One conversation

Scares me to death

There's so many words that

I've never said

But I promise, I'll break down the wall, be brave enough to make the call

Telling you how I've been

Feels a little like skydiving

The thought of it just makes my body freeze

But I stare up at my feelings

Like they're written on the ceiling

I close my eyes but they still follow me

Think I need to open up

Worry less 'bout being judged

I know there's someone by the phone

If I'm honest, the thought of talking terrifies me

I've been running, it won't be real if I just hide it

One conversation

Scares me to death

There's so many words that

I've never said

But I promise, I'll break down the wall, be brave enough to make the call

Look at me, hopelessly, I'm only sinking faster

I've done everything, to make it seem, like I have all the answers

But I don't know how, to breathe right now, and say out loud, that I'm not ok

But I promise, I'll break down the wall, be brave enough to make the call