Old Hymns

I've got an image in my mind of what is tantamount to manhood

And it doesn't look like you

If I tailored my existence to facilitate your ease

I'd light a matchstick, burn me down and be contented

Did it stick in your throat too long

Did it leave a bloody divot on your tongue?

I swear

I never understood this ecstasy

so far, so close, so hard to see

Calculated sophistry, humming old hymns at me

Dysfunction and aggression

Breeding sadness and depression

Like my daddy and his daddy before

oh everything about this needs to change

I might be damaged goods but

change is worth the fucking effort

what the fuck are you waiting for?

Does it challenge where we belong?

Could it make a bigger difference to leave behind

I swear

I never understood this ecstasy

So far, so close, so hard to see

Calculated sophistry, Humming Old Hymns at me

Hope for tomorrow

Is what's waiting there for me

I don't need to wonder if the cancer will take me

I just draw on myself I think there's been enough blame

to go around for all of us

Don't you fucking tell me it's nature or nurture man again and again

if I’m gonna be making a difference

I don't want or need the chance to be shifting the blame

I know I can be erratic, but I don't want the same for my children

I never understood this ecstasy

so far, so close, so hard to see

Calculated sophistry

Humming Old Hymns at me