Same Old You

all of the pain that im feeling inside of this moment

is written inside of my soul

all of the shit that i lived is stuck on a screen

and it plays back in my skull

all of the people i got next to me yeah they love me

i love em but i got a problem

im always alone, stuck in a limbo

all of my demons they sitting and watching

i got nobody to hold, im sitting alone, and maybe yeah im the problem

i know some shit that i've done just wasnt enough, im staring back at the causes

my mirror aint happy for me, it looks incomplete, i need to find that lil somethin

i know the trauma is deep, i knew it'd be, im staring back at your coffin.

goddamn

chin up, chin up, lil man

take the blows again and again

you got a goal, go work on it man

lil man, why you still cryin?

you closin 20 in a week or somethin

i know you still actin up like a child

you act so mature but you really aint nothin

nothin you hear?

if i could kill you i'd kill you right here

all of the shit that you spit soundin weird

and all of your lyrics are shit its clear

goddamn i wish you'd dissapear

getting heavier year after year?

drinking away all the problems again?

you make me sick to the stomach you hear

different view

different rules

different place

different booze

different tools

different school

different game

same old you

i really hate myself and the way ive been living

i said that its time for a change

every night when i sleep, im dreaming of me

singing on top of a stage

i know some people can feel all the shit i've been living

i know i'll be one of the greats

stuck inbetween hating me, and feeling like god

duality into the page

all of the writtens ive wrote

hold onto some type of hope

i wanna see me expand

i wanna climb up the rope

i wanna feel like im floating

dont wanna worry no more

all of the stress i've been holding

i really just wanna let go

i really just wanna let go

but all of the people around me are gonna be cryin

i know my friend will sit at my grave pondering how the fuck could this happen

i know my ex would be calling me weak

i know my family just wouldnt stand it

i know my life would be left incomplete

i know my soul would be left stranded

and even now, sitting and talking about it reminds me of all of my pain

i sit and listen to novel and lt, they give me all of my strength

bloody done taught me all of the things i remember ever since i was a kid

dani and wang got me sprinting in cars, getting adrenaline into my brain

i wish it was different inside me

i fight to survive, but lately im losing

stuck in confusion, i visit my grandma to find out the truth

but still i aint choosin

1000 new ways to survive, all one of a kind

still at the loading screen waiting

they told me life is a game, so play that shit right

but still i dont know how to play it

im lost inside of my mind

into my rhymes

tryna stand up from the pavement

please dont you give me no love

i had enough

thats dangerous waters im chasing

all of the shit that i've done just wasnt enough

all of my loves done left me

dont wanna fight it no more, its always a war

never supporting and changing

different view

different rules

different place

different booze

different tools

different school

different game

same old you