When It Was Chaotic

What if

It never changes

My pain is endless

And that's it

And what if

I'm always healing

Forever pining

For sanity

But now life has ceased

And the storm's calmed its breeze

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head

Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed

And I couldn't handle it then

But I can't take emotionless

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head

What if

The ache just worsens

My bones can't balance a skeleton

But now life has ceased

And to stone my numb feeling

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head

Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed

And I couldn't handle it then

But I can't take emotionless

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic

It's not easy

Feeling nothing

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head

Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed

And I couldn't handle it then

But I can't take emotionless

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic

Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic