Bottled Up

You didn't hear me

On my knees begging please just leave it

My guts are telling me something is fishy here

And it's gonna end in tears

That's when you asked me

A conversation innocent turned dirty

You hit a nerve, and worse is we're in public here

And I'm gonna lose my shit

So for the ten million thousandth time

I could tell you the hard truth

Lay out the years as my proof

Show you the scars I didn't choose

When I thought you would love me too

I could run through the key parts

Trauma I can't seem to get past

I open my mouth, you make it worse

That's why I keep it bottled up

You think you know me

But you don't

You know a version of myself that I made up

'Cause you're a puppeteer

Toying with my strings

I can't let you play me again

So for the ten million thousandth time

I could tell you the hard truth

Lay out the years as my proof

Show you the scars I didn't choose

When I thought you would love me too

I could run through the key parts

Trauma I can't seem to get past

I open my mouth, you make it worse

That's why I keep it bottled up

You're so blind to all my cries

You always hypocritisize

I can't even count the times I tried

Decided to leave it behind

So we could lead a normal life

That's why I keep it locked inside

But since you asked one last time

I could tell you the hard truth

Lay out the years as my proof

Show you the scars I didn't choose

When I just want you to love me too

I could run through the key parts

Trauma I can't seem to get past

I open my mouth, you make it worse

I open my mouth, I bottle up

I could tell you the hard truth

Lay out the years as my proof

Show you the scars I didn't choose

When I thought you would love me too

I could run through the key parts

Trauma I can't seem to get past

I open my mouth, you make it worse

That's why I keep it bottled up