in for the kill

I um’d and ah’d for long enough

To hold my breath and take the jump

But nothing ever hurt enough to fix me

I flushed the blades and hid the knives

I tried to find the point of life

I wonder if I'll feel alive at fifty

And I know

Soon enough

You’ll be leaving me

If you don't

I’ll let go

Oh, so easily

So used to feeling nothing

It's just the way that I’ve been

I see a good thing coming

And I’m going in for the kill

A fault in my construction

I think I’m missing something

Loving the rut I'm stuck in

It’s just the way that I’m built

It's just the way that I'm built

I tried to find a brighter side

But it was just a waste of time

'Cause all the skeletons I hide they, miss me

So the for the sake of my own pride

I bottle up the tears I’ve cried

So i can bathe in my own misery

'Cause I know

Soon enough

You’ll be gone again

When you go

Tell myself that's how I wanted it

So used to feeling nothing

It's just the way that I’ve been

I see a good thing coming

And I’m going in for the kill

A fault in my construction

I think I'm missing something

Loving the rut i’m stuck in

It’s just the way that I’m built

It’s just the way that I’m built

I've got walls of steel

But they’re caving in

'Cause now you've shot holes in my ceiling

Like a wrecking ball

Hitting porcelain

I’m not ready for

What I'm feeling

So used to feeling nothing

It's just the way that I’ve been

I see a good thing coming

And I’m going in for the kill

A fault in my construction

I think I'm missing something

Loving the rut I'm stuck in

It’s just the way that I’m built

You shot holes up

In my ceiling

It's just the way that I'm built

Are you fucking

With my feelings?

And I'm going in for the kill