andover

I am worried I'll

Never meet someone

Someone as alluring as you

And that I'll never

Never feel deeper

Than the way I felt for you

And I am certain

That if we met

Met as kids, we'd play hide

Hide and seek

Seek together

And then we wouldn't have cried

Trying to coddle

Struggling to model

A hand shape that would take

To holding what was meant to break

But still bending backyards

Over and over

I am worried

I'll never feel safe

Never feel safe with someone new

Cause you planted flowers

In my stomach

But I'd bleed at every bloom

I am certain

That if we met

Met as kids we'd fake fly

High enough to

Bypass the damage

We brought to you and I

Trying to coddle

Struggling to model

A hand shape that would take

To holding what was meant to break

But still bending backyards

Over and over

I knew it wouldn't work

But I didn't want you to be a lesson

I stayed unsure what for

Was it the attachment in our adolescence

Unspoken and forever more

I will wake up with things to tell you

But I know that it won't work

So from afar I will love you

Over and over and over

I just wanna fly over it all

And do it all over