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An insatiable, competitive

Kid on the field

23-years old now

I still play like I did

Obsessive and fixated

I got off in the spin

Of knowing you'd never choose me

But still playing to win

Because the greatest shame of all

Is wanting something you can't have

I knock on doors until they open

But being wanted doesn't work like that

Every night I asked the moon

"What can I do about this?"

She'd reply, "Nothing, find someone else"

Every night I asked myself

"What can I do about this?"

She'd reply "Nothing"

Then I'd silence her again

I shade my eyes orange

And pick my chin until it bleeds

If ruin's in my fingers

Then I will wear it pretty

A sophisticated gamer

I write the rules

With mastermind concepts

That cloud if I'm fighting myself or you

What do I do with all this awareness

Besides freeze in time realizing how

irreversible life is

Every night I asked the moon

"What can I do about this?"

She'd reply, "Nothing, find someone else"

Every night I asked myself

"What can I do about this?"

She'd reply, "Nothing"

Then I'd silence her again

Every night I asked the moon

"What can I do about this?"

She'd reply, "Nothing, find someone else"

I have found someone else

He's beautiful

When he's asleep I ask the moon

If you had a good day

Each night, she responds

That it's not mine to know

I ask her to give you a good tomorrow