Hear Me Now

I began to believe in god at 24 Right now it's 10:50 pm November 4th What a year it's been What a life I live Never thought that I'd be In the spot where I sit But who could really plan this I guess the man above had some other plans with All the things I'm supposed to be doing Could be just a humble lesson I'm keeping it moving They say he gives the toughest to the strongest Maybe that's to make you feel like you belong in The situation you placed in or stuck with But sometimes it don't make much sense And I've never been the one to blame or make excuses I don't point fingers I know it's me who chooses Decisions that are made on whim But I may need help That's why I'm talking with him Can you hear me now? Forgive me For lying to myself Now I know you Are here now For me to stay Hey god It's me again Show me if you hear me Are you listening? Lately I've been praying almost every night Don't know how to do it but I hope it's right I just wish the best for people that I know need it Cuz if they feeling how I feel I know they feel defeated And I guess prayers are just thoughts My girl telling me to ask you for what I want Part of me feels selfish if I make requests Cuz most my time I've been alive I spent not having faith if you were even real But once I have a need I should expect it to be fulfilled? I wonder how that make you feel Being used all the time See I'd rather blame myself if things don't fall in line Though I guess we all need help from the one that's divine Can you hear me now? Forgive me For lying to myself Now I know you Are here now For me to stay