Hear Me Now

I began to believe in god at 24

Right now it's 10:50 pm

November 4th

What a year it's been

What a life I live

Never thought that I'd be In the spot where I sit

But who could really plan this

I guess the man above had some other plans with

All the things I'm supposed to be doing

Could be just a humble lesson

I'm keeping it moving

They say he gives the toughest to the strongest

Maybe that's to make you feel like you belong in

The situation you placed in or stuck with

But sometimes it don't make much sense

And I've never been the one to blame or make excuses

I don't point fingers

I know it's me who chooses

Decisions that are made on whim

But I may need help

That's why I'm talking with him

Can you hear me now?

Forgive me

For lying to myself

Now I know you

Are here now

For me to stay

Hey god

It's me again

Show me if you hear me

Are you listening?

Lately I've been praying almost every night

Don't know how to do it but I hope it's right

I just wish the best for people that I know need it

Cuz if they feeling how I feel I know they feel defeated

And I guess prayers are just thoughts

My girl telling me to ask you for what I want

Part of me feels selfish if I make requests

Cuz most my time I've been alive

I spent not having faith if you were even real

But once I have a need

I should expect it to be fulfilled?

I wonder how that make you feel

Being used all the time

See I'd rather blame myself if things don't fall in line

Though I guess we all need help from the one that's divine

Can you hear me now?

Forgive me

For lying to myself

Now I know you

Are here now

For me to stay