And I looked
And behold a pale horse
And his name that's said upon him is death
And hell followed with him
You ever get depression, face goes blank
No expression, dealing with some demons, they aggressive
Looking at the gun on the dresser
Got a question, will these thoughts stop if I press it?
I don't really wanna off myself, but I often sit and think
Gotta shed a tear like a drop from a faucet sink
Need to talk to a shrink, walk with a priest
Wanna fight everybody when I walk down the street
Want a problem?
Fuck you, your honor, never had a father
Made me crazy motherfucker
Came in swinging like Muhammed Ali
Frazier, born in 1980, started rappin' way before I ever heard of Shady
I ain't even know white dudes rap
Thought you had to be black for that
Had to feel he started jackin' with the hat to match
I was rappin' way before I heard of aftermath
I've been feelin' crazy, but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately, but
Maybe some day I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look in mirrors
'Cause I don't like looking at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face
Why so aggressive?
Say it with my chest, yeah, so they get the message
I don't mean to text best if you just look away
'Fore I make your head twist like a exorcist
Wakin' up from nightmares
Heart thumpin' God, are You hearin' my prayers?
'Cause I hear thunder and I don't really like mirrors
Someone stares back at me lookin' like my fears
The only one that I'm scared of is G-O-D
And the old me, drunk or OE
And I don't know if you aware, but I've been slowly
Numbing pain like a OD on codeine
Battlin' my demons like it's 106 and Park
Medicatin' sins with some gin, never healed the scar
Tryna end part, part of my heart with my art
But the dark feel like darts and I don't know where I should start
'Cause I've been feelin' crazy, but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately, but
Maybe some day I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look in mirrors
'Cause I don't like lookin' at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face
I'm mentally unstable, unable to get a grip
Bet my guardian angel probably thinks I'm a piece of shit
Got a mountain of problems, and I've been standin' on a cliff
Figured maybe I should jump and tell everybody I tripped
Can't admit it, but I'm sick of the prescription pills that I get
Gettin' harder to swallow, and I don't feel like I'm fixed
I'm slippin' further and further into the grip of a pill
I've been digging since I was nothin' a little six-year-old kid
Now I'm grown and I'm seein' ghosts
Of the man I used to be before I fell into this hole
Full of bones, I've been gettin' stoned
And it helped me cope with everything beautifully
But I wish I would've known 'bout the lows
I moved into the middle of nowhere
If I was you, wouldn't go there
'Cause I just wanna be (by myself)
Nothin' but some mountains and cold air
I got my dogs and I don't care
And I did everything (by myself)
I just wanna be in nature
Keep erasin' my entire legacy
Of everything and being famous
I am not a celebrity, I'm a piece of paper
That I scribble my thoughts on when they feel dangerous
Fuck you, I can see it clear
You still want Hollywood, now I wanna disappear
Everywhere I go, people lookin' at me weird
Every time I see mirror
(I can't look at my face)
I've been feeling crazy, but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately, but
Maybe some day I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look in mirrors
'Cause I don't like lookin' at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face
