Eulogy

She was a mess

And she had regrets

And she let some people down

A wanna-be actress

Insecure and jealous

A cunt when no one's around

And when I'm gone if you think of me play this

Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?

She tried her best so please just remember

Me for my intentions

Babies and success

The only shit that I see on the Internet

And I wonder if I'm ever more than that

Would you love me equally when I try and don't succeed?

But what you'll never know

Intrusive thoughts so fucked I wouldn't get parole

And I'm tired of pleasing everyone I know

To be palatable

Let's say you're fake crying at my wake

Would you make a stupid eulogy?

Like, "She was amazing, an inspiration, almost famous"

'Cause that's who you wanted me to be, well

She was a mess

And she had regrets

And she let some people down

A wanna-be actress

Insecure and jealous

A cunt when no one's around

And when I'm gone if you think of me play this

Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?

She tried her best so please just remember

Me for my intentions

Running late

I say I'm leaving but I'm only half awake

And I wanna think that I'll be someone great someday

Wait, excuse me while I just procrastinate again

Demons that I face

I hate my skin, I hate the truth, I hate my waist

Got anxiety that I self medicate

And I laugh when I see someone else in pain

Are you okay? (No)

Let's say you're fake crying at my wake

Would you make a stupid eulogy?

Like, "She was amazing, an inspiration, almost famous"

'Cause that's all you wanted from me

But she was a mess

Did drugs off your chest

And she let some people down

A wanna-be actress

Insecure and jealous

A cunt when no one's around

And when I'm gone if you think of me play this

Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?

She tried her best so please just remember

Me

She was a good friend

Loved all her exes

She made her grandma proud

More than an actress

More than successes

Failures and body counts

And when I'm gone if you care to replay this

You can make a bet my heart was in the right place 'cause

I tried my best, it sure wasn't perfect

But don't forget I had good intentions