Breathe

Breathe

I… I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

Breathe

I… I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

I’ve been tossing and turning

Waiting for the sun to come out

But everyday is rainy

And all I feel is pity

For my family

Embarrassing

I hate myself

Everyday I wish

I killed myself

But i’m too weak

And these thoughts

Are too deep

Voices yelling

I need sleep

Tossing turning in my sheets

Crying lord why can’t you see

I’ve been searching for peace

But all I feel defeat

I’ve always been too weak

Carrying these burdens

drowning in the deep

Suffocating

On my thoughts

Thinking about

My past mistakes

Thinking that

I was so great

But I hate

That I have

Negative traits

Let my pride

Get in the way

Telling myself

That i was the best

Thing you’d see

You’d never find a man like me

Lies

Lying to myself

Let the jealousy

Get the best of me

When you left

I was tossing

In my sheets

On repeat

The words that

You said to me

Didn’t see a future

But i saw our

Whole family

Then you said

Some things

That hit me deep

I’d being lying

If I said you

Didn’t still

Haunt my dreams

While I go search

For peace and

Face my demons

That drag me deep

While these chains

Tighten around me

Suffocating me

To the point

That I can’t

Breathe

I… I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

Breathe

I… I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

Bouncing back

From last year

Spiraling down

I didn’t know

Who I was

Anymore

Fighting

With my girl

Told her I

Didn’t love

Her anymore

Everynight

Yelling

Back and forth

So bi-polar

Feeling

Better off alone

Lies

lying to myself

Let temptation

Get the best of me

Had old flings

Texting me

Pondered

The thought

Of cheating

But I

Wouldn’t

Be any better

Than my ex’s

So I left it

I confess it

I hate myself

For almost

Ruining

The good in me

False Redemption

No Redeeming Qualities.

Honestly

You’re too good

For me

You deserve better

Than my mixed up

Personalities

Breaking down

Everyday

Wish that

I can fix my pain

Say i do

But I brush it off

For some other day.

I’m so sorry

For the pain

That I caused you

Stressing everyday

From my weak issues

I promise I’ll change

If I didn’t have you

I’d still be stuck

In a loop

In my room

Slowly consume

My thoughts

To the point

That I can’t

Breathe

I… I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

Breathe

I…

Can’t breathe

No more…

Breathe

I…

Can’t breathe

No more…