My Addiction

I'm a mess, I'm a different person Wonder how I became so cold My reaction of late uncertain When I looked into the mirror, I froze Saw the devil looking back at me He just smiled, as I lost control Not a glimmer of hope for me To continue down this road Just take another shot of the whiskey Numb the pain, I don't wanna remember By morning, I'll wake up distressed Don't have the odds in my favour I'm better alone, I think so What I tell myself on the daily Gotta break from these bad habits Or be stuck forever sadly My mistakes haunting me Another fight, I cannot sleep One wrong move I can't take back The shit I said, I should relax Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains It always fucking pours? My fault once again Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength Been down this road before, when will I make amend? Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober Overthinking everything in my mind It's so much easier to drink another bottle Than just look at you and say that I'm fine I get angry for no reason and apologize A vicious cycle, cannot rewind The pain I feel inside is eating me alive My addiction got my wondering why Don't recognize who I am Go through the motions without a plan Suffer in silence to be a man I try my best, give all I can Yet it's not enough, I'm finding out when at my lowest Who was there for me? You care for me, but do not show it What's my way of coping? Drown myself in alcohol I get wasted, not complacent, doesn't help at all My mistakes (my mistakes) haunting me (haunting me) Another fight (another fight), I cannot sleep (oh-oh) One wrong move, I can't take back The shit I said, I should relax Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains It always fucking pours? My fault once again Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength Been down this road before, when will I make amend? Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober Overthinking everything in my mind It's so much easier to drink another bottle Than just look at you and say that I'm fine I get angry for no reason and apologize A vicious cycle, cannot rewind The pain I feel inside is eating me alive My addiction got my wondering why