Winter Of Existence

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My body yearns for a change of tide

Seasons change and seasons grow

Reason thin and reason slow

I'm gonna need another reason to go

I'm gonna need another reason to go

Through this saturated smile

thoughts are running wild

Not much sense all the while

Could it be a form of sin hidden from deep within?

Or more likely

incidentally,

positively full

Through the crack in the door it's easy to see

Like a frail grasp, to such a degree

No draught or smog is thicker than this social pressure

Bite sized pieces to an unsolvable puzzle

drift around my consciousness while I trudge and struggle

I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this (Repeats)

Tell the secrets before they go

let it spread like wildfire

And I say what I mean and I mean what I say

so let's talk about it

When I see it I'll believe it

until then I'll have to take what's coming to Me

Run away from pleasure

Run towards pain

Unknown of any consequences

I can't stand to see, I'll pretend to be

somebody else's child

All things aside, all these problems of mine

put to bed for now

And if you're so inclined and the are stars align

I'd take your chances now

Picture this instead,

at the water's edge,

Begrudgement waits ahead

I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this (Repeats)

Twice I've been struck

Once been led astray

Zero consolation

Mainly just decay

In a poor attempt to cross the finish line,

I've used up all my chances to solely pass the time

And what can I say

In this winter of existence

I'll take it day by day

By the gods I'll pray

If this is the final act then don't anticipate a grand finale

You'll have more chance finding resolution down a blind alley

I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this