Lamenter

I’m choking

I’ve been here before

But I’m not leaving

Stuck in this place

I’ve stopped pretending

Like I have it all under control

I give in

I give in

Crawling, screaming for the pain to stop

But it hurts just like the first time

Psychosomatic And asymptomatic

I can’t live like this

This war on my mind

I feel the whispers

They’re coming closer

Counting down till the day they take over

I breathe slow

My lungs weaken

Try to fight the riptide as I leave this

All behind

Why was I designed

To carry a weight that I can’t take

Drowning me beneath the waves

Take this all

Make me crawl

So low I can’t see out

Buried underneath my doubt

Is it I’m just born this way?

The endless knife that carves my fate

Cut me open

Leave me broken

All alone in this moment

Cut the ties and leave me out to die

In this hell I’ve dragged for myself

I think I’m going insane

The oxygen in my brain is all gone

I’m overwhelmed

So just bury me

Under insecurities

Dead man walking now

No sign of the way out

What killed the peace in me

Robbed me of my clarity

became my own cancer

Transformed, Lamenter

My eyes turn black

See shades of grey

Painted by sorrow am I trapped this way?

Captured by my pain

Grief locked the chains

Waiting for anything to take it away, take this away