Black Box

Waking up to the cold embrace of chills running down my spine 

The nightmare races through my head, now I’m spinning around in circles

and no one to hear my cries for help

It always ends the same way, alone in the void 

Am I better off asleep or dead? 

Because being awake, it hurts too much

I’m falling farther away

from where I wanna be, am I losing grip of my sanity

I hate the way that I have become

Why am I paranoid all the time

I feel alone and I’m sick of the silence 

 

 

(Chorus) 

My mind fades away and I can’t escape

All these thoughts in my head and the pain I’ve faced

I’m so isolated (trapped inside my head again)

Empty and jaded (deeper I descend)

 

 

Slow breaths concentrated 

 

 

I feel trapped by my pain and the thoughts that brought me to this

Why do I feel so stuck

In my own hell, I feel so dead inside

I forgot who I am

But somehow I feel comfort living in the dark 

In the shadow of who I used to be

I hear the darkness calling me  

 

 

My mind fades away and I can’t escape

All these thoughts in my head and the pain I’ve faced

I’m so isolated (trapped inside my head again)

Empty and jaded (deeper I descend)

 

 

Nervous feelings in my head pushing me to the edge of my seat every time I look over my shoulder

Running circles in my mind racing back-and-forth in time feeling helpless to the slow embrace of pins and needles 

Where is my nerve

Get a grip with yourself, plant your feet on the ground  

I can’t stand firm

Find your center and breathe, before you drown 

 

 

My mind fades away and I can’t escape

All these thoughts in my head and the pain I’ve faced

I’m so isolated (trapped inside my head again)

Empty and jaded (deeper I descend)

Claustrophobic 

I don’t wanna live in this space anymore

Diagnosis 

My sanity has been washed out