Medicated

I’m holding on,

Even when I feel I’m slipping

I can't hear you when you say you’ll listen

And even on my better days

I never see you through the haze

Emotions cloud me up

When I don't feel enough

I try to keep you close

So don't let go when my world is caving in

I'm faded out

Every day with this weight on top my chest

It’s suffocating

I’m pushing back with nothing left

There was a time

Where I’d do anything to take this away

But I never counted the cost

Looking for healing like it’s make or break

But sometimes I’m so lost

How do I

Show you

What it's like

When I feel torn apart (torn apart)

And every time

I try

I’m choked up inside

It’s like I’m never getting better

Am I just too damaged?

Blurred vision, my condition knows no bounds

Even medicated

I barely make it

I can't escape it

Alive, sedated

I swear to you I’m never giving up

I’ll always keep on trying