When I Grow up

When I grow up, I wanna be a magician

You wanna see a trick? Pick a card, any card

I'ma close my eyes, don't tell me what you get

It's a jack of hearts ain't it? That's crazy I didn't get it wrong!

This morning I was watching the tutorial, it was like 45 minutes long

When I grow up, I'ma be richer than every player in the Lakers and Clippers

20 thousand people packed in a stadium

Staples Center, I'm just painting a picture

Better life for my momma and sister

And every night, we having lobster for dinner

And some ice cream cones

For all the nights we froze

And really I wish that my daddy could do it, but that's the life he chose

Guess he ain't think his son would be worth it

Be he don't know how much he'll be hurting

But I know I won't cry no more

I don't even know, sometimes I don't

Don't know if I'ma see your sunshine no more

But I don't know, I'm only nine years old

When I grow up, I just want everyone to see that I believe in something

And if I leave the world, I hope and pray to God that I'll be leaving something

I got a hole inside my heart, I'm bleeding from it

Is there hope for me? 'Cause I can't think of nothing

When I grow up, I just want everyone to see that I completed something

When I grow up, I'm buying my momma a house

'Cause year after year, they keep tossing us out

Tear after tear, she be calling around

But my family can't keep helping all of us out

Too young to go get a job, I got school in the fall, but I feel I'm falling right now

My cousin just made like a thousand from kicking in houses

I'm tryna get down

'Cause only ones my age with it is the **** in the streets

And I'm feeling like I'm living on a leash

Damn, I done seen **** go from a joe blow to a whole 20 in a week

What I can't do is sit and wait on everybody 'cause I know that they ain't giving it to me

Plus every **** around me getting to the money

I ain't finna be the only **** bummy

Where the packs at? And the Ziplocs? And the caps at

I'ma get a bag when I bag that

Just front it to me, I'ma get you that back

Do only do cash or Cash App?

Five months later, they buying my dope

But watching me close, so I gotta watch what I post

That's why I went bought a gun before I had bought me some clothes

'Cause they was gon' try get me gone at the perfect time

Momma just called me, couldn't make words but I heard her crying

I called my sister to see what was wrong, but her big head ass won't pick up the phone

I called my momma back and said, "Can you please talk to me 'cause I'm rushing home

She said, "You the reason why they shot your lil' sister tryna be fucking grown

They was looking for you, I told them leave, but they was pushing for you

Then your sister got mad and long story short, she took a damn bullet for you

When I grow up? I'ma be a magician 'cause all them **** disappearing

Not my lil' sister, ma is you serious

God, I'm 'bout to send you them **** spirits

Feel like I'm the reason why she ain't here

I was only tryna stop from getting evicted

Feel like I ain't had no different decisions

We was brought up in a difficult system

We ain't monsters, we just miserable children

But I gotta make 'em feel how I'm feeling

Shoot at all them ****

Poom, poom, poom, poom, poom, poom, poom

Sound like I gotta go get a new engine

Tell the preacher I'll be a statistic

Tell the cops to come send me to prison

Every time I see them **** I'm shooting and I don't care what family member I'm hitting

Then they shot me back, damn

Guess this how it's ending

They label us criminals

We just kids in a system

When I grow up, I just want everyone to see that I believe in something

And if I leave the world, I hope and pray to God that I'll be leaving something

I got a hole inside my heart, I'm bleeding from it

Is there hope for me? 'Cause I can't think of nothing

When I grow up, I just want everyone to see that I completed something