03’ Adolescence (Live)

I grew up a fucking screw-up

Tie my shoe up, wish they was newer

Damn, need something new and I'm in love with the baddest girl in the city

I wish I knew her

I wish I weren't so shy

I wish that I was a bit more fly, I wish that I

Could tell her how I really feel inside

That I'm the perfect **** for her, but then, maybe that's a lie

She like a certain type of ****

And it's clear I'm not that guy

Ball player, star player, I'm just watchin' from the side

On the bench, 'cause my lack of confidence won't let me fly

I ain't grow up with my father, I ain't thinking about that now

Fast forward four years or so from now

I'll prolly cry, when I realize what I miss, but as of now my eyes are dry

'Cause I'm tryna stay alive in a city where too many **** die

Dreaming quiet, tryna dodge a suit and tie

Who am I?

Who am I?

Things change, rearrange and so do I

It ain't always for the better, dawg, I can't lie

I get high 'cause the lows can be so cold

I might bend a little but I don't fold

One time for my mind and two for yours

I got food for the thoughts to soothe your soul

If you see my tears fall, just let me be

Move along, nothing to see

Always did shit the hard way

My **** slanging in the hallway

Burnt C.D.'s and trees like this was Broadway

Times Square, kept the dimes there in the locker

Some Reggie Miller, with more brown hairs than Chewbacca

Whispers that he got it for the low-low

Selling dimes for a dub

Them white boys ain't know no better

Besides, what's twenty dollars to a **** like that

He tell his pops he needs some lunch

He gon' get it right back

I peep game, got home, snatched my Momma keychain

Circle whip, the appeal too ill to refrain

I hit the boulevard, pull up to my **** front door, his mama at home

She still let him hit the blunt though

I told her hell and sat with my **** and laughed

And talked about how we gon' smash all the bitches in class

I complimented how I see him out here getting his cash

And just ask what a **** gotta do to get that, put me on

He just laughed when he see I was sure

17 years breathing, his demeanor said more, he told me

****, you know how you sound right now?

If you wasn't my mans, I would think that you a clown right now

Listen, you everything I wanna be, that's why I fucks with you

So how you looking up to me when I look up to you?

You 'bout to go get a degree, I'ma be stuck with two choices

Either graduate to weight, or selling number two, for what?

A hundred bucks or two a week

Do you think that you would know what to do if you was me?

I got four brothers, one mother that don't love us

If they ain't want us, why the fuck they never wore rubbers?

I felt ashamed to have ever complained

About my lack of gear and thought about how far we done came

From trailer park to a front yard with trees in the sky

Thank you mama, dry your eyes, there ain't no reason to cry

You made a genius and I ain't gon' take it for granted

I ain't gonna settle for lesser, I ain't gon' take what they handed

Now I'm gon' take what they owe me

And show you that I can fly

And show old girl what she missin', the illest **** alive, who am I

Things change, rearrange and so do I

It ain't always for the better, dawg, I can't lie

I get high 'cause the lows can be so cold

I might spend a little bit but I don't fold

One time for my mind and two for yours

I got food for the thoughts to soothe your soul

If you see my tears fall, just let me be

Move along, nothing to see

Man, I thought better

If you ask me