Family

Taste bitter on a guilty tongue It's hard to see I'm the chosen one Fake friends with a camera phone Ugly, drunk, cold, and missin' home This home of mine I see it in my dreams Where everyone looks happy And everyone still likes me This home of mine I miss it all the time What happened to this family? What happened to this family? (Have I let you down?) Texts, calls, hugs, birthday cards Bein' thoughtful can be so hard First 15 years, I'm the favourite son Last 15 years, I'm the hated one This heart of mine Gets blacker all the time Affection makes me nauseous Believe me, I don't want this I hurt my blood tonight I made my sisters cry I never say "I love you" Even though I want to I'm just my father's son My mother's kid A brother I'm nobody's friend And this is all my fault I only make you cry I don't deserve this family (You're better off without me) 'Cause I let you down And I lost my mind And everything got messy And everyone got angry I cursed my blood tonight It happens all the time Is everyone against me? Has everyone goddamned me? What happened to this family? What happened to this family? What happened to this family? What happened to this family? Don't hate me Don't hate me Don't let me drown I hate goodbyes So cringy, I could die We only say "I love you" 'Cause that's what we're supposed to And most families lie But I meant it every time And treat you like you're worthless I never said I'm perfect