I'm Not Fine

I'll be the best they've ever seen

I'll make them so dang proud of me

It'll take some work to get to where I need to go

But I'll be there before I know

And it's hard, and I'm tired

But I'll work to get higher

But it seems I've lost all function in my legs, is this normal?

It's fine, I'm fine

Am I fine?

I'm sure it's fine

Am I gonna die?

Ugh-!

I'm a wreck

I'm in a downward spin

And I don't know what it feels like to win

But they tell me, "Just gotta put in the work, you'll be fine"

And they tell me, "Everyone falls down time to time"

But no matter how hard I try

There's this little voice in my mind

And it tells me every time

That I will not be fine

I'll be the best they've ever seen

You'll fall, you'll trip, you'll make a scene

It'll take some work to get to where I need to go

They're better off without you, you know

Whoa, oh-oh, it's hard

Too hard

I'll work

Won't work

I just gotta keep telling myself that I'll be fine

It's fine, I'm fine

Not fine, not fine

We're fine, I'm sure it's fine

Not fine, not fine

I'm a wreck, I'm in a downward spin, and I

I don't know what it feels like to win

But they tell me, "Just gotta put in the work, I'll be fine"

And they tell me, "Everyone falls down once or twice"

And though I try, and though I reach for the sky

There's this voice that's getting louder in the back of my mind

Saying, "I'm not fine"

It's screaming at me, saying, "I'm not fine"

I'm a mess, my life's an uphill climb

I get halfway up, but I slip down every time

And I honestly don't think that I will ever be fine

'Cause my head, it keeps screaming, "You'll always be behind"

And they tell me, "It's alright, everyone takes their own time"

But my time is moving backwards, I don't think I'll get it right

'Cause I'm losing my own battle, cannot find the will or might

'Cause the little voice that's supposed to cheer me on is the one I have to fight

It's fine, I'm fine

We're fine, I'm sure it's fine

I don't think I'll ever be fine

All fine