Monsters (feat. Ricia)

I wish I could talk to the monsters

Have a conversation with the monsters

Ask them if they even know they're monsters

I wonder if they even know they're monsters

I just want to talk to you one time

I really don't want to, but I have to, gotta ask you

Did you really have to? (Huh?)

My trust wasn't even that bad, and I would've put it past you

Now, I don't trust shit

'Cause you wanna do that little dumb shit

I wonder if you went to sleep that night

Probably felt bad, slept it off, woke up, ate something? Right

I ain't eat nothing, way too disgusted, bitch

I was up cryin', pain in my stomach, bitch

Was you just tryin' to help you, or control me?

I hope it helped you, 'cause it broke me ('Cause it broke me)

I went to the pew to consult me

But it didn't change, I can never be the old me

Feelin' lonely, and I ain't want no one to hold me

'Cause I ain't wanna meet another you

Probably take a day or a year to get over for you

But for me, I don't think I'm gettin' through it

When I have kids, I'ma be so overprotective, play detective

'Cause I can't let knowing what you did to me happen to them, not again

I hope you know I cry sometimes, I wonder if that gives you strength

I don't know how you feel, but I feel like shit, for real

Really almost slit my wrists, for real

Bet you ain't know I have nightmares, did you? (Did you?)

Bet you probably don't care (Nope)

Probably somewhere, with a smile on your face

Not knowing that I feel this way, damn

I wish I could talk to the monsters

Have a conversation with the monsters

Ask them if they even know they're monsters

I wonder if they even know they're monsters

And I'll cry, one last time

But I won't let you hurt me anymore

Still alive

And I'll die before I let you hurt me anymore

I can't erase it

I know what you're goin' through, trust me, I really do

But it can be worse if you let it be

This is your moment, to see from a different view

I know it's a struggle, 'cause you would be happier

If you could forget what they did to you

I know they invaded, but you still amazing

That's somethin' that they couldn't steal from you

That's somethin' nobody can take from you

No, it's not your fault, so quit blaming you

They knew it was wrong when they did it, but kept goin' wit' it

It's nothin' you made 'em do

Keep hugging that pavement, it'll strangle you

I know you can make it, I pray for you

Accepting what happened is brave of you

It's brave for your body, you made it through

And I'll cry, one last time

But I won't let you hurt me anymore

Still alive

And I'll die before I let you hurt me anymore