Ghost

Fuck it

Another day, another night

Another fuckin' battle in my mind

A lot of love, a lot of hate

A lot who wanna see me unwind

I'm feelin' low, all alone

Now, get your shit together is what I'm told

Been feelin' low, super low

And they won't even care till I'm ghost

Used to dream of the top, had nightmares at the bottom

Till I realized that the bottom is the top when forgotten

Pray I don't fall like autumn

When you feel more like a product than a person, there's a problem

Been feelin' so low, I don't want no one to know

I just need somethin' to cope

Leave me alone, told 'em all, leave me alone

Then wonder, where did they go?

Been here before, push away people I love

Just so they never get close

End of my rope, I don't think anyone care

Maybe they will when I go

Maybe they'll talk about me on the internet

They never care, only care when they benefit

Introvert, honestly out of my element

Still, I'm afraid of becoming irrelevant

Pay attention to the ones who don't clap when you win

If they lie to you once, then they'll do it again

Knew the hurt would come back, I just didn't know when

And the night of the crash, I thought it was the end

All it takes is a moment to alter a life

And I thought about that for the rest of the night

Am I makin' a difference with things that I write?

Just a human, you don't know the demons I fight, so

Another day, another night

Another fuckin' battle in my mind

A lot of love, a lot of hate

A lot who wanna see me unwind

I'm feelin' low, all alone

Now, get your shit together is what I'm told

Been feelin' low, super low

And they won't even care till I'm ghost

You say I'm the worst, they say I'm the best

But call me tonight when you get off of work

Got things on my chest

I've been feelin' bad for the feelings I have

I know that I'm blessed

Been learnin' that money just isn't the cure

For feelin' depressed, I know I digress

I've been a mess, honestly, I've been a mess

Hate what I think in my head

Act like a friend, then when I need you the most

That's when you leave me on read

Have to pretend, always just have to pretend

Like I don't care what it said

Stuck in my head, plenty of things I could do

I just go lay in my bed, damn

Don't really know why I'm feelin' so low

Where do you go when there's nowhere to go?

They talk and they talk, and I know they don't know

What it's like when your heart becomes empty and cold

How do I know what's real when my mind questions all I know?

How do I save myself from myself when I'm feelin' low?

How do I flip the page if I'm stuck reading what I've wrote?

Why do I always drown in my thoughts? Need to learn to float

Another day, another night

Another fuckin' battle in my mind

A lot of love, a lot of hate

A lot who wanna see me unwind

I'm feelin' low, all alone

Now, get your shit together is what I'm told

Been feelin' low, super low

And they won't even care till I'm ghost