Roses

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

This ain't a fucking hit, I just need a vent

It's February 25th another week just went

It's been intense, I need a-get this album ready

Would be out already but I'm stuck inside a deep descent

Even friends ask how long I'm going sober for

Ever since the breakup I don't know no more

I don't even know who I know no more

I ain't in the know no more, that's all I know and I don't need to know no more

No no more

I feel alone and I'm afraid of change

But just as afraid if everything were to stay the same

Disgusted sick I bathe in shame, fuck this shit

I love my gift but hate my brain

I'm overwhelmed roaming through this lonely realm

Rime will only tell if my family and friends know me well

A couple mates are probably hoping that I don't excel

If you ain't got respect for the sober shell you can go to hell

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

Now your gone every night I gotta stay distracted

That's why I'm making all these tracks it's so my brain is active

I've been trynna make the greatest track list

But it's hard when it feels like I'm fucking covered in hater magnets

I still dream of you when it's clear as day

I try to drink the fear away but it's hear to stay

It's no surprise the every second I close my eyes

All my omens rise I swear to God I could hear you say

"Off you go, enjoy the show"

Enjoy the sluts, enjoy the road

Enjoy the bucks, enjoy the load of pointless stuff

Enjoy the drugs, enjoy the rush

Avoid the lows, yeah, that's what I always do

Guess you always knew, even when I had a small breakthrough

Every plan of staying sober would fall straight through

Still I promise it would all change soon

Yeah, alright, come on

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke

You held me close and you felt my hope

You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope

But now your gone, off to hell I go

Off to hell I go

Off to hell I go