Inner Thoughts (Honesty)

Can I give you all that you need?

We're spendin' the nights runnin' free

This one hurts me

I'm holdin' my words so we can be here

I always keep it in, always

Stridin' through life, I can see

Headphones on for the train ride

Silence, it tears through my bones

There's a whole train car full of people

We all just stared at our phones

Five thousand friends on my socials

But for some reason, I still feel alone

I've lived here my whole damn life

But at the same time, well, I've never been home

If I could, I would stop my head from these thoughts

That bounce off the wall till I'm droppin' dead

But I ignored what the doctor said

And got better on my own, I don't need you to cop me meds

No mind, so my brain feels lost

I thank God that my soul's been found

Now, I'm givin' you the real damn me

Now, I'm never gonna stop this sound

'Cause these days, rather help you up

Than to sit there and let you down

'Cause I'd much rather help you swim

Than sit there and sink while I Iet you drown

Said I'm back on my real shit

Back now and I'm back with the fire

I'm back with the back to backs

I won't stop till my mum's out of work and my fam can retire

It's real man shit, come and they go

Yeah, I know there's a chance it'll hurt

My brother, what makes you a man

Is the way that a man puts his family first

It's easy to take what's yours

It'd be much harder to give

Everybody works hard for themselves

A real man works hard for his (Uhh)

Can I give you all that you need?

We're spendin' the nights runnin' free

I'm holdin' my words so we can be here

This some real shit

Stridin' through life, I can see

My best friends turned strangers

I learnt that my love was a lie

I just don't think I could face it

Thank God that my brother's alive

One of them still never made it

It's a pain that I suffer at times

And I know that he's up there with Teta

And Teta's sippin' that scotch in the sky

I swear that the whole world's crazy

No respect, and the whole world's lazy

The one girl that I love still hates me

And I wish that we kept my baby

I'm not proud of the man I've become

Lost good friends to the grams of the drugs

I'm tryin' to swim on the moonlight, argh

I wanna dance on the sun

I wanna hold hands with my son, but I can't

Wanna put hands on the gun

And cock back and drop the clip to my brain

And lay there in pain with a handful of blood

All of my homies act like they don't know me, they're actually close

In the end, all my friends disappeared through the years like they Casper the Ghost

I get stuck in a train of thought, where I can't feel pain at all

Praise the Lord that I still be alive

But at times, I would die, and I'd give back my life

Just to make sure my baby's born

Stuck in a train of thought where I can't feel pain at all

Praise the Lord that I still be alive

But at times, I would die, and I'd give back my life

Just to make sure my baby's born

Can I give you all that you need?

We're spendin' the nights runnin' free