Drama

Like man was sayin', bruv

Many nights man prayed, bruv

Somewhere someone who's gonna help me

Through this, man

Someone's gonna help bring me out of this shit, you know?

Time, just took a while for man to recognize, boy

Who He was gonna send

And, you know what? Mans, I'm very proud

Very happy to say it's one of my own, innit, you know?

And, boy, I know none of this is easy, you know?

Just proud to be, to be witnessing what's goin' on, man, you know?

Look, I don't know where to start

But I just done my first psychodrama

And I hope the world hears my craft

I'm excited, man, I pray you get to hear my craft

From our childhood, our mother didn't hear me laugh

I'm presentin' you the future, I don't fear my past

I ain't got a tattoo anywhere near my arms

But best believe on my sleeve is where I wear my heart

Do you know how easy it is to be a sinner?

How many losses you need before you can be a winner?

Reason with a criminal that needs to eat a dinner

Is it survival of the fittest or is he a killer?

Losing Dad was big, losing you was even bigger

Never had a father and I needed you to be the figure

We're forgettin' we had a brother that was even bigger

We were figures just tryna figure out who could be a figure

My brothers never spoke to each other when I was growin' up

I remember tryna build a bridge, I wasn't old enough

I pray I'll hold the game for as long you man can hold a grudge

Years went by

I know it's fucked how I had to hold it up for Mummy on my own

I know it's tough, I got the coldest blood

I remember when you got sentenced and I was throwin' up

It's like they took a piece of my freedom when I had opened up

I'd just lost the only fuckin' person that I idolized for my entire life

I copied you down to the finest line

Bro, I got a flame in my mind that I'm tryna fire-fight

The pill I had to swallow wasn't bitter, it was cyanide

I learned over time, separation issues I describe

Are probably the reason that I struggle feelin' anything

I ain't got a vision of a marriage or a wedding ring

It's world domination in music or it ain't anything

I'm obsessed, focussed on the objective, tell a don, yes

Disagree, I object

Used to treat my women like an object

Girls want a monster? Come and see

I'm the Loch-Ness

Settle for a lot less

I just hope you're proud of me, brother

It's been a long stretch

You're my hero

And prior to this, I was livin' on the edge like a house on a cliff

But now I'm livin' in the present like my house was a gift

I'm goin' psycho

This scene's mine, bro

Rappers wanna diss me

It's only online, though

They put the mic and soft in the Microsoft

Not I, bro

Swimmin' only time I can lie, though

And let me be genuine

Anybody richer my age is American

Kickin' ball or inherited

It only makes sense I'm independent

Knowing everything, it happened how I'm tellin' it

You **** aren't gettin' it

I'm comin' from the struggle, I survived and I'm still here

Used to bump train, that's two ways, I don't feel fear

I don't know trust, I know a tight bond will tear

Like a good wig, I can't tell you if it's real here

I'm from South London, brother, people gettin' killed here

You can make a mill' but you can lose it if you're still here

I lost over thirty grand to family, I'm still here

The word don't appeal to me, you steal from me, I'm still here

Bro, I wasn't made for this

I don't get a break but I'm aware of what breakin' is

I wish you could take a hint as well as you can take the piss

I don't even speak to our brother, man, I just pray for him

It's never too late for him

Life is at its craziest

Walls started cavin' in

All the things I've seen would turn a theist atheist

I didn't get ninety-nine marks in English, I was fakin' it

I got ninety-eight, 'cause I don't know what a "vacation" is

If you saw God, what would you say to Him?

If given the chance, would you have taken it?

If you could rewind time, what would you change in it?

Do you believe in what an angel is?

Furthermore, do you believe in what the Devil is?

Do you believe that I could illustrate what Streatham is

Then break the fourth wall and base Leslie on my relatives?

I'm grateful for my life, because I aimed for this

Every bad moment, every single fuckin' day of this

People lookin' at me, that's what fame can bring

But to understand the stairs, you take steps, then retrace the shit

I tell my circle the future's ours, we're shapin' it

Your past is just the reason that it came to this

I thank God for the pain because it made me this

Dunno if you remember them days, bruv

I see them days, one night in particular, bruv

I think, um, for some reason man put on a beat

It was us in the front room

Freestylin', bar for bar

I don't even know how old you was these times, bruv

Probably about, hmm, ten, ten, nine

Yeah, man, if I think about it now

I think about the transition

Them days there, you had no bars

But let's be real, did anyone, bruv?

You know what I mean, it's called context, bruv

But, it was mad fun, bruv

But the stuff nyou're out doing today, proper, man

You know what I mean, man?

Thinking man's definitely blessed

To see how the whole thing's come together

From times when I think it was "Jekyll and Hyde," man

You played man, that one there

I was thinkin, "Yo, this one her's a banger, bruv"

And I remember when I heard that one

Live on the, on the airwaves for the first time, bruv

We was pumpin' it

Man come to my door, he said, "Rah, man!

That's a bit loud, you know?"

I was like, "Fam, that's my brother"

He was like, "Yeah?"

And you know, on your birthday, man sent you a little card

And it begins 'Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel

But Samuel said to him, "The Lord has not chosen these"

So he asked Jesse, "Are these all the sons you have?"

"There is still the youngest," Jesse answered

"But he is tending the sheep"

Samuel said, "Send for him

We will not sit down until he arrives"

So he sent for him and had him brought in

He was ruddy and of fine appearance and handsome features

Then the Lord said, "Rise and anoint him

He is the one"'

Bro, you know what that means

Say no more, man