Scars on My Heart (feat. SadBoyProlific)

I'm sick of lovin'

Every time, it's just a misconception

I find a girl and she lead me into a new dimension

Thinking 'bout the future, countin' out all of our blessin's

Then I find out it's all fake and she leave me guessin'

I guess I learned my lesson, I guess we're better ended

I wish I never gave my heart out, dummy, shoulda' kept it

Just like a piece of paper, she ripped my heart in half

I guess this kind of thing is something I won't ever have

But it's fine, soon I'll just get used to it

To keep my mind off of love, I'll just do stupid shit

I fell asleep, questionin' is anyone for me

Layin' on my back, usin' music as a remedy

Listenin' and writin' all these sad songs

Happy for a bit but doesn't last long

I'm tryna find the joy in all this chaos

Keep on prayin' for my future, hope it pays off

Broke my heart

You tore it in two (You tore it in two)

(Yeah) So, why am I (Why?)

Still thinkin' of you?

(Why am I thinkin' of you?)

(Why?)

Yo, lately, it's fuck emotions

Grab the dope and then I roll it

I've been trippin' off the potent, honestly I'm omnipotent

Used to think about our memories

I cleared 'em like my history

Wrote this in a grave to set the scene 'cause love is dead to me

Our love was one sided, I know you ain't felt the same

I bet you relish the fact that I fuckin' felt this pain

You gave me comfort, you were like my shelter from the rain

Grippin' the razor blade, I swear I'd never love again

I'll keep that promise, trust me, I won't break it

I'll rip my heart right out my chest and chain it in the basement

Knockin' bottles 'til I'm wasted, clear to see I'm changin'

Rather stick to blazin', and the the dreams that I've been chasin'

Broke my heart

You tore it in two

So, why am I

(Why am I?) Still thinkin' of you?

(I don't even know no more)

I know hearts don't physically break, but my chest hurts

I can still smell her perfume on my sweatshirt

They say that time can heal, soon I'll feel better

But all that can heal this is if I never met her

Story never ends if the story never starts

Take these sad feelings, try to turn them into art

Paintbrush, light stroke out all of my feelings

Spittin' shit, typin' quick, keep writin' lyrics

Take the wheel, I can't see, but keep steerin'

Movin' on, kickin' out my past demons

And I'm not walkin' I'll be runnin' from this torture

I see the light, do my best to move forward

Broke my heart

You tore it in two

So, why am I

Still thinkin' of you?