Painful Skies

Look, I know what I did

And I'm not sitting here blaming anybody else

I'm not feeling sorry for myself either

Yo, I listen to this beat

It makes me think of what I've been through

All of the mistakes and stupid shit that I got into

All the fuckin' fakeness of people that I made friends with

So ninety-eight percent of those friendships, I had to end it

I'm too old to be worried and keep pretending

And I apologize to some of the people deeply offended

But I can't live in the past, that shit just wears me down

That shit just tears me up inside and fuckin' tears me down

I'm not the man I was then, but I am not running

And I am not yet the man that I am still becoming

I'm getting stronger every day and I can fucking feel it

And all the problems of my past one day I'm gonna deal with

Thanks for your patience, I apologize for each occurrence

And I just hope that you can take this as some reassurance

My life is good, each day is better than the next day

But I have not forgotten, won't settle till every debt's paid

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it

Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels

Look, let me make this clear

I don't regret my whole past

Can't believe how time flies

Shit has gone by so fast

You let me in your secret world

And that was quite an honor

And I admit that that's a life I thought

I might have wanted

Probably I pursued it if I hadn't gotten caught up

But flags they started raising with these kids

All gettin' shot up

And I became addicted to a drug

That almost took my life

Lookin' back that might have been the only thing

That saved my life

I'm full of love now, I'm happy I don't harbor hatred

Pretty sure that's how God wants us

And to me, that's sacred

I'm not sitting here judging and calling y'all some vagrants

And I'm not pointing fingers questioning your occupations

I'm just hoping that the way I feel can shine some light

I know you got a good heart, dawg

It's time to stop the fight

And let yourself become the man

That you're  supposed to be

I still believe in you

No matter what, you're always close to me

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it

Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels

And I know becoming friends again ain't possible

At least for years

And fucking up for me is still a problem

That I deeply fear

Only got a couple close friends now

That's how I like it

And I think I'm actually gonna make it

But I'm not a psychic

One of them's a brother

Proud to say that he's my best friend

Come on man, you guys are fucking brothers

Let this shit end

It's sad to me to see that greed is still

The devil's weapon

I tried my best to walk away from shit and kept steppin'

Brothers doin' good his heart is filled with love

And we gon' keep on building with these people

That believe in us

Remember there was four of us till death do us part

Now there's only two of us, the rest grew apart

It doesn't mean that I don't think about you, too

Every week and even if we never speak

There's still a bond I'll never leave

I hope you're happy and your family's doin' awesome

And hope that you still followin' the progress

Of the little monster

You had a hand in helping save my life

I won't forget

Let's live the next half with no regrets

'Cause it ain't over yet

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter, we can't change it

Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels

(Protected by angels)