after

Yeah

After, after, where am I running to after?

Feel like my life goin' backwards

Swimmin' through miserable patterns

After, after, nothing to see but disaster

Wanderin', searching for answers

(I never been in this chapter)

Feel useless, food in the fridge still rottin’

Bought nothin' last time I went shoppin'

I don't see ghosts, but your chair still rockin'

Not good at art, but I started

With a garden and large white house like you wanted, with arches

Keep me distracted, don't wanna keep the bad habits

I thought I had a heart attack, but I can manage

I don't wanna see myself in the mirror

Past two years have beaten me up

Drop my drink, no time for cheers

Shave my head and get cleaned up

I don't wanna see myself in the mirror

No more tears from the boy I was

Leave this swamp, see the coast all clear

Maybe this time my life won’t suck

Yeah, yeah, yeah, uh

Where am I running to after?

Feel like my life goin' backwards

Swimmin' through miserable patterns

After, after, keep askin’ God for the answer

Sleep by myself in a camper

I’m still alive and beating

So, what else matters?

I’m leavin' tomorrow

I don’t know where I’m gonna go, but I’ll find somewhere

Bright and early

Grab a drink from McDonald’s or somethin'

There’s— There’s just nothing here that— that interests me anymore

I don’t know, I’m excited