Dear Mom - Slowed

I don't think that I can lie

I think I'm running out of time

I think that I'm finally losing my mind

'Cause I can't stop sitting here doing these lines

My mama said, "Boy, you must be out your mind," yeah

I see you in here on your grind, but

You only get older and time don't go backwards

So what drives what you should go find, yeah

But mom, my anxiety's finally getting better

And she said, "That's fine, but

I can't have you here just taking up space

Like your dad did back when you was nine," yeah

But mom, please just give me some time

I swear to God, we gon' be fine

I swear to God, one day I'll buy you a car

Rent myself the best house I can find, I

Swear to God, I'll prove 'em wrong

I know you believe in me, so I'll prove you right, just

Don't ever forget that I'll never give up

Even though this ain't what you like, yeah

But there's nothing else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm going down there

The cloud done hung over my head

It done ran out of rain and now it put a round there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

And until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for living

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

And mom, see, I know that this tongues on your mind, yeah

You seem to forget about mine, yeah

And I'll admit I don't wanna talk about them

I'd rather look at pictures of Violet

But mom, I just need to confide and

Say what's here up on my mind and

Tell you 'bout all of the shit that's been going on

Please can you just give me five, yeah

Starting out, the girl I love is back here

And I think she gon' stay in my life, yeah

It's hard 'cause I love her so much

But it's rough at the moment, I can't make her mine, yeah

And plus I'm in love with her mindset

And it's crazy 'cause she's doing so much better than me

Like how the hell did I find that? Yeah

And Johnny's been downing these bottles again

And I don't think that I can stop him again

'Cause every time he go out partying

Saying he's done, he find beer and then start up again

And mom, now I feel like a loser

This girl, I cannot ever lose her

And y'all find a bottle and choose her

And I don't know just what to do

But there's nothing else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm going down there

The cloud that hung over my head

It done ran out of rain and now it pulled around there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

Until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for living

There's nothing else for me out there

I'll make it or I'm going down there

The cloud that hung over my head

It done ran out of rain and now it pulled around there

I swear to God, I cannot stop and I'll never be finished

Until this whole goddamn city diminish

Until I stand up and say that I made it

And tell my mom I have a reason for living

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah