All or Nothing

I packed up the apartment

Had to shake away the darkness

‘Cause my lights were burning out

And getting cold

The world was barely spinning

And the timing was quite fitting

So I took the first flight out to Heathrow

I wonder if stayed

And if the leaves had never changed

If I’d have ever been okay with letting go

It took a couple years

To make amends with all my fears

To see my friends and all their kids

That’s what I missed most

Ooooohhh

I found myself where I lost it all

Saw the bluest skies, even that got old

And I found my God where

People tend to lose Him

Now I’m somewhere in the middle

Of a hundred new excuses

Might’ve cashed that check

But I missed your call

Oh I’m never not working

And I never come home

Well it changed my heart

But thickened my skin

Now I’m somewhere in middle

Of all or nothing

You say looks like you’re doing well

From as far as I can tell, you’re thriving

Living life just how you want it

And I appreciate your words

But as far I’m concerned

It’’s been shit show of a year,

To be quite honest

I’m back and fourth

And wasting time

Another worry on my mind

What the hell I never signed for this

Ooooohhh

I found myself where I lost it all

Saw the bluest skies, even that got old

And I found my God where

People tend to lose Him

Now I’m somewhere in the middle

Of a hundred new excuses

Might’ve cashed that check

But I missed your call

Oh I’m never not working

And I never come home

Well it changed my heart

But thickened my skin

Now I’m somewhere in middle

Of all or nothing

(All or nothing)